Right now, even though I already feel I fail Russia and myself in just a few ways, I have not forgotten or let go of a Russian talk concerning patience. While I may not be specifying any particular Russian man about patience, the article is still something I care about.
There will always be religious debate or even outside philosophies or conformed views that the single issue of having sex is the biggest relevance or key when it concerns matters of patience. I still get tempered from time to time at how sex can be used against people when it comes to having relationships or commitments. This can be taken in several ways, but since I am from a religious history, I meant it as not being holy or pure enough. Taken in the opposing view of not being sexually experienced enough, people have their own opinions. Personally? I love sex but sex isn't everything. I don't think a person's sexuality should determine ultimate superiority. Of course there can be preferencs, but I disagree with basis of superiority.
What brings this to mind is the latest talk about Austerity. While Austerity is definitely a political term, I am presently directing it at how it effects and correlates with relationships outside of politics in my own personal world. When looking at the political term and elaborations of austerity, it is painful to look at. In theoretical elaboration, it is mentioned that austerity has its own measure of optimism and hope. It is not a definite rejection but a conditional or shady one. It is a view that has potential where things get better in time.
Patience. Patience. Patience. It can be such a killer at times. I see how lack of patience can ruin or be a killer as well. This is when I say it is a tough world and a tough life. I feel I've already had more than enough shares of relationship talk of single boot camp. I do encourage that independence is a good thing and sometimes, being single is a good thing as well. People should learn how to survive and adapt independently and be on their own without having to be in a relationship. I'm fed up and I really don't want to hear any type of advice at all. I simply want to acknowledge and state the pain and struggle of the issue of patience.
In correlation of austerity, while there is some fairness and sportiness in relation to love and relationships, it is still a structured and conditional love. People do have rights to have their own standards and own boundaries. People have rights to choose to unconditionally love or choose to abide by their standards. People have the rights to put themselves first. It is rights that I would choose to support over communism ANY DAY. It can be heart breaking to not feel some kind of equivalence. It can be heartbreaking with double standards. It can definitely be heartbreaking or full-fledged war when a person is denied their individual rights.
Despite my own times of being a whiner while being single, I still claim I have myself. I get depressed and upset but just because I have emotions, I don't feel like a loser. I don't feel like it has gotten the best of me. I feel natural and normal in my own way. There may be more of a majority that would have no rules at all and stay gungho and aggressive until they can find any sort of relationship.
Next thoughts are underdog issues. Clouds. I think in present times, there is a softer approach. There is some kind of freshness.
As for past times, I want myself to be known: I can't believe some people were that immature and controlling. It is a strategy of control. When an architect does not get their way of control with me, they can be downright dirty and ugly in the matrix. I seriously look down on the people that are responsible for some of their sick mind games and sick cruel games of heart snatching or victimizng of all sorts. I think it was immature and controlling. Past and present, I stay cloudy and shady myself with the way other people call shots. There are no promises. There are no commitments. I will not have fear over anyone's trickery or today's word of the day, "Skull Duggary." If people want to play games, we can get to the nitty gritty or B.S. more. I will not fear them. It isn't fair for some people to waste my time, but I will always stay steadfast in resolving myself and looking forward to the future.
In present times, yes, it is softer and fresher. I want to take it light and easy right now. I'd strive to toughen up if it won't be that way. In rolling with patience and endurance, I'm going to try to be optimistic and hopeful for the future.
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