It really is annoying with the way some videos are edited to hear only some words. Anyway, I'm really not too sure about Jon this time around. I've never thought to have any sort of positive expectation from him if I were to run into him again. It just looks like there is gossip and talk going around and I'm nervous at how I am somehow growing/expanding.
I think Chris Wallace could be Dane's foodstamp or I could totally be wrong. I'm guessing that what is being said about Dane is that he is being attacked for isolated incident and also being labeled as an abuser for leaving me in the dark or feeling stranded by being walled up and making no comment. In another piece of gossip he may have already had drama in the past for being biased. Will have feedback after I say assumption about Jon.
I really don't know exactly what to make of Fox news with symbolism. Of course it is a literal network and I have some sort of share who works with Fox. In the past with AT&T competition, it could be more of a push to continue on with competing with communications and the media. In more down to earth, I could assume Jon may be mad at what people (Megan and other women) say about me to Dane and is being a white knight with me feeling backstabbed and left in the dark. He can see it a little my way with the Sampson and Delilah comparison. I assumed both of them to be Johnny Depp, but now it looks like Jon is saying he feels misunderstood and that he is not being serious about thinking I should commit suicide or be death defyingly stranded. Hey may also be framing the media for me to assume Dane or whatever Chris it is, is being serious that I should commit suicide.
I do not know if I will make any impact in critical thinking or mediation, it may be a fight that is just between them.
I'll start with Dane's defense. I said it once and I'll say it again: He is such a sexy predator. Yes, he pisses me off and can be so cruel, but he has his moments of being such a sexy predator. I really would not know how to resolve the battle because both Jon and Dane are predators and both guilty of being predatory. There is definitely different comparisons of how they are predators. Jon is a sexy predator too.
In my snowflake world, Dane is an officially single man. I have never felt comfortable in going for a married man whatsoever. They have both been players.
Finishing off isolated incident............ In a serious political perspective, it could relate to conservativism and privacy. But to mesh the serious politcal perspective with Dane, Dane is not fair. With the way his incident is set up, I feel defenseless, I feel like it is one sided, it is not politically correct to call it literal and fair political game. Different settings and circumstances where the worlds do not add up to an honest reality. He is still a sexy predator. I like the seductive fantasy unless he wants to intentionally ruin it with brutality. As for being biased? If Dane has learned his lesson and thinks more critically or thinks things through at all when making judgement rather than be quick to assume or jump to conclusions with no ground, than the past is the past. Personally, I don't think people should always have to think critically. Through time, people usually do figure out things for themselves and have a better idea when making judgement.
As for Jon, I can't see his entire agenda or what he is out to accomplish. I've recently assumed he represented Anthony Weiner and is with Stacy. I've thought he's been with her, but maybe the guys want to transition back into an open field where nothing is in stone and everyone is game.
In all honesty, I really do not know all of the details of the soaps to definitely know As the World Turns for Dane and Jon and how many women and how many stories they have with women. I have not been keeping up with all of their own man drama as they would probably assume in the stalker in me. I have an idea but I still think the name "Rose," in the "2 and a half men," show is a pretty exaggerated label and name to give me. I've been mad at that, but there have been so many other things I've been mad at, I havn't had time to cover all of my anger issues.
Dane is obviously on the grill right now and I grow anxious to possibly discover how he will respond to some grills and interrogations on what he really thinks about me or other drama in his life.
Jon, I really do not have a response right now for you. You can say easily it's all fun and games and comedy and the hate you spewed at me was not serious at all. (which I'll never believe) (in addition, I'll never be fully convinced that you want me to stay alive and not commit suicide). You rejected me and hated me in the worst way. Josh was a pretty harsh hater, but of course his hate would not compare to yours in the world of the big dogs. I have never had a man hate me the way you hate me. You don't exactly look like your gungho for being a white knight or sweet talker presently, although I do notice some sense of accountability of other people. While you could be critical of me going through Dane's cycle and think "hey, why not throw yourself back in my cycle?" I just do not systematically work that way. I guess at times, I could throw myself at some guys or have fake safety nets. Maybe I unconscioulsy make guys jealous, but I hate the game. I hate the idea of taking advantage of one person just to make another person jealous. I hate the idea of how some couples systematically drift apart and into each other. I hate the game and sometimes I hate the player for putting so much into the system where it just doesn't seem personal or like an actual relationship.
So, I'm the MIA oddball that is not like the rest of the commune or is conformed to the dating scene and the games of the dating scene. I really am trying to be patient. I guess I'm just tired of being the poor vulnerable one that will never have enough time invested to get to know me and rather be overlooked. I don't want my drama and personal life in the media anyway. I'm just tired of suffering over the same excuses and same systematic strategies. I'm tired of some relentlessness for me to be a slave or subjected to the commune. It drives me crazy sometimes with how I know I'm cattily being noticed and written about and that people would take so much life from me and use me in such extreme measures and not even realize I'm more than a piece of art object and people who may be actually interested in an actual relationship put too much into art rather than getting to know a down to earth individual.
Somtimes, the game and the mystery does keep the passion and interest alive. Other times, I think guys are already encoded to never know when they go too far or overboard. When a man puts himself first, he puts himself first. I give myself a pat on the back in dealing with some of my vulnerability.
So, I won't say I'm really on anyone's side or that I'm bought into believing anything. If anything, maybe I need to get a lesson on how to lie. Not sold on present rebound but the last blog is still the same.
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