Random Thoughts

I finally got around to buying a deodorant with no anti-perspirant. I don't think the stores have had it on the shelves before, but it is comparitively expensive to deodorants that do have anti perspirant. It is made out of natural ingredients and the major pro to this deodorant is that it is known to be a major preventer of Alzheimer's disease. There is no known cause, but some studies show that it does prevent Alzheimers. But another negative I'm learning, I smell a mixture of the apricot deodorant and my own body odor. I felt like I was getting a little bit of a headache. So, I think I'm going to switch back to what I've been already using most of my years. Between long term expenditures and every day odor, I'll take my chances at various risks of Alzheimers.

In another thought, I'm so happy to be already started and rolling on my new knitting project: A bag/ purse. It does have a name, I don't know if I will stick with it, or make up my own name, or not even have a name at all for it. One design of a knitted purse. I have 2 more upcoming hat projects to learn. Reminds me of some French heartship. I'll live an be ok. I don't know. Thoughts to myself again.

Surprise surprise more family issues. This time, I feel I'm being tested and competed with over the issue of greed. What my family doesn't realize is that I hate authoritarianism and possessiveness period. We can argue about anything and they'd never get it because they would always be judgemental, arrogant, and assume I'm mad at something else when still, at their age, they do not know how to respect differences and boundaries. My aunt Sue twists me a litte, I can respect differences, but there is a difference between verbal abuse and sincere hatred and personal issues compared to actual differences.
After that, some people do keep tabs and get very extreme at judgement and the fact that people have some fickleness throughout the years.

Fickle Pickle!


I think its Wisconsin bringing the cheesiness out of me



I did make a white chocolate Amaretto cheesecake the other day. It tasted very good, but I need to work on the texture. It was too liquidy in the end. I'll have to experiment with more ingrediants.

I think I'm going to go on the offense with Kathy Griffin. I havn't caught up with a lot of the movies yet, but I have watched a few lately. Her cattiness is definitely bold with no hiding in her hooker and sexual predator roles. In an odd way, I have a little more respect for her in Dinner for Shmucks. She has no backing down in her arguments of sexual offenses. In this movie she is hardcore for revenge. She is obviously the bad guy with her psycho trashy slut role. But, if I were to really think, I think she could be screaming maybe for her side of the story to be told. Maybe she really wasn't the first to be the sexual harasser. Maybe she does it for her own revenge and for the women. I really would not be surprised if she was of some Arab or Asian religion with the karma of it all. Maybe she feels she is at her last straw and will pull any stunt or measure for either justice, or her own way of being a hateful lover by using a karma game. I have understood how some stories of some movies go. I wouldn't say they are exact or match every detail of a character. Maybe its a method of gambling. It's just a movie, of course I don't know the full story or if the guy who was the main role in the movie really wronged her. But I wonder if it could be a strategy of exposing someone's truth. He could have told her to suck it at one time, or could have been responsible for sexually degrading her or another, and it was her revenge to wear her hooker outfit and shove his cell phone in her *!@!#&$ and force him to speak to his cell phone while his head was being puppeted to speak to her @!@%$#$ .......
I don't know. She's obviously been screaming for attention lately over sexual harassment and sexual degradation. Maybe she really has something more to say. Maybe she thinks like an Indonesian women and it is her way of her suicide of lighting herself on fire and running through the village.
I really don't like thinking about the suicidal Indonesian women label. I've done crazy shit. I've felt embarassed over particular things. I really don't want to think about it.

In other thoughts, I hate that I'm getting so anxious at my crafting. I feel overwhelmed by all my projects, unfinished projects, and having enough quantities made for the upcoming festivals.

I really am excited over today's interview. I would be so excited if I got the job. I think I'll know by the end of the week.

Not many other thoughts for now. I'm thinking of how I want to spend the rest of my evening.