World coming to an end

With so much going on right now, I can't help but be such a theorist. I think right now the loudest message is "The Good Die Young."
I really don't know if I'm officially going to die soon. It is funny with how much I already feel demonized and labeled to be evil that my death may still be demanded. I feel I may be at a cross road over the issue or I may definitely be doomed to die and there is nothing I can do about it.
Do I want to die a young martyr? If I die, I really want people to know that I would do it for the faith in Christianity.
What if I was given a serious choice at longevity and I had to choose a particular evil to be committed to the rest of my life to share some relation to the rest of the human race that while we are still unique snowflakes I am still the same in that I have to be evil to live. I really don't want to bring glory to lady gaga. This is the issue that I have with communistic people. People telling other people how to live. Pride and Prejudice. People having to be obsessed over, over analyzed, experimented with for security, entertainment, and communistic control.

If I were to ask anyone anything right now for guidance, I'd want to talk to Dane or Brad Pitt. I havn't forgotten news pieces of the oil spill. As much as I do value religion and would be a martyr for it before dying for anything else, I'd want other thoughts, answers, beliefs, philosophies to be talked about.
I'm really not in the mood to talk to some sort of priest right now. I've had my share of prayers personally to God as well as sitting through a lot of sermons. I'm not even against the continued message of the word of God Alpha Omega beginning and end.
If people have serious issues with me maintaining my beliefs which really is an American freedom, I really would like to hear what some really are trying to say about me getting along with the rest of the human race. It seems impossible at this point to be a conservative. I'm more passionate for conservatives than I am for socialists.
I still care about discriminatory issues. I see where the next agenda trail is going: Europe. There still are Arabs, Asians, and Africans in Europe. It is not entirely caucasion, but it is known that Europe's majority is Caucasion. I do have some pride in my ethnic heritage. I wouldn't drop it because I know other races could be suffering. I'm not really out to get or cause suffering of other races. I still think the poor countries and minorities deserve to live and have rights as anyone else.
If people are asking about Nathan the baseball player here in town, I don't think he has literally died. I was attracted to him. He just didn't stick. It is the way it is in life. People come and they go; various people have various levels of attachment. There are some people I have a stronger attachment to than others. I've noticed it amongst myself and others that I have respectively stayed quiet with because I understand the right to be alive and the right to be free. If the issue wasn't confronted, I would be open to getting reaquainted with him, but now it would be awkward with the way socialism is going. Back to feel like someone is playing Barbie and Ken with us and playing Sim world games.

That's all thats on my mind now. ...........................