Random Thoughts

This week has already had some times and events.
In adjusting to my present life and the future life for me and the baby, I have so many new thoughts to think of................
I have already stated that I am a person of leisure. I have also already stated that I am subjected to nobody. There have still been dozens of psycho paths to test me and provoke me. I remain numb to their gossip and judgement. I also remain blameless to various sorts of victimization which includes forcing me into another person's agenda to say I am one way or the other when the test is so invalid, unintelligable, and intentionally rapist. Even if I were to be intelligently tested with people actually asking questions and me giving elaborate answers, they still would not deserve me for the sake of their agenda. But, back to another previous but still different statement, I talk and elaborate at my own leisure and will. I will still most likely be tested and provoked by a list of psychos and haters and angry and stupid people. Nonetheless, the statement is out there. It is a shame when someone gives themself the credit or a dictator lets another person have credit for trying to rob me of that statement, but that statement will always be no matter what. It is nothing but games of provoking, victimization and dominion. There are just simply times that I am too impatient and I have to just say some things for myself because I'm not always strong or patient enough to ignore people.
Speaking of, with the way things are looking, I am going to have to keep on expanding for myself and the way I am as a person. I'm upset for both me and the baby that I am such a hated and harassed person. I hate the vulnerability I presently have to deal with. I'm upset for how hard it will be. I'm also upset that some people will most likely carry on more hatred by suggesting other options to do.

People have so many ways of acting and reacting and dealing with the hatred they have to experience in their life. While there are moments that I feel raped that is not always necessarily in a sexual way, I still choose to not let hate be the ruler of my life.
If people are reasonable within my judgement, I can work with reason. When boundaries are not respected, assumptions made, lies told, people demanding me to answer to their harassment and aggressiveness, I have to work with my own ways in dealing with various people and various problems and various reasons which to this day, I still do not always know about.
I am going to make every effort to make it known how leisurely I am amongst the hatred. I am only aware of things to a certain extent. It does not mean that I am an ostrich with its head in the sand; it means I am a person who will not be subjected to the hatred I have to experience in my life. I have my own sensible awareness which is kept in pride. I know for myself how big the world's population is and the troubles it has. I know life can be overwhelming. I also know that I have a life of my own where I do live for myself. I plan on making every effort for my baby to have a happy and TRULY free life no matter what anyone says or does.