Names symbolism literalness

I have no choice but to make a daring move right now. The specifics are obvious. How insane of an idea it is for me to deny a life and say that it is all staged....is it really insanity? With how I've seen some of the media go, there are several ways to be perplexed.
I've already crossed a bridge like this before...... I deny that I am in any gang. I deny being responsible for some sort of serial killer's kill.
If there is no serial killer, and the media is making a social conformity of people's minds, there is still the question of how serious the corruption is.
Is it a serial killer by the freemason's?
Does this person make the choice to take their name so seriously and so literally that the death will have some seriously profound meaning? They seriously represent their name and would be killed for their own symbolism?
It is nothing but staged and made up? ................................

I did see and do recommend people seeing the movie "Namesake." It does get emotional. In my personal opinion, I don't think names should be taken with such serious symbolism. My baby's name will have meaning but it does not mean that it lives as a symbol. I deny that I am a symbol with anyone. There are people who connect me with other people, but that does not mean I live as a symbol or even for them personally. Some people get way too obsessed in their stalkings. I am so satisfied with the baby names I have chosen to decide from.

I think one tactic is for me to keep watching "Two and a Half Men." I'll be leisurely about it as I usually am.
Right now I am more withdrawn from everyone compared to usual. TV not only gets damning but boring as well. I get damned from so many places. Anyway, there is not a whole lot new. People still talk. Some people have the same harassments, aggressions, and ridicule. I remain unmoved and unchanged. People may eventually get over themselves or may have a contest of stamina and consider themselves winners. The fight is no longer about the subject or accuracy, it is just competition of stamina. When with lord of the flies, competition will always be ridiculous and illogical. Waiting to be rescued or for people to get over themselves. I really don't want to even challenge with accuracy because it is another excuse for a person to feel entitled to be possessive.