A Couple of Thoughts

Last night, it could have been a spur of the moment rescue by Ashton Kutcher with his ability to be in the know; or it could have been a coincidence. The name Bridget which (Bridget Jones Diary) I presently and in the past have felt relatable feelings with. Of course we have different stories and backgrounds.
Anyway, I did not watch the full show. With the way some things have been and some things I've noticed, I've kept my distance. If I were to guess at his character, I would guess he would be representing Josh. He could be representing other people, and if I guess again or even with Josh, the answer is no. I do laugh at some of the comedy, but it is not meant to be taken the wrong way. My perspective of Josh is all in his motive. I don't take it with sincerity at all. I would look at it as his attempts to have pity on me. While the scene does not portray me as the underdog, he has his own way of shifting the picture to make it look like he is desperate for me to say he wants his influence to show he feels I am worthy and other people should feel the same. It isn't that he loves me, it is part of his own pride as a man. He does like to feel like a white knight sometimes or heroic. He can't stand the way some people would look at me or the things people would say, so out of his pity, he would paint a lie. It is codependency if he were to expect something from me in his attempts to popularize me or personally treasure me. He could also just want something that is severely impossible in a very personal way between him and I. He is after the challenge, the conquest, in what is really a backwards way with the way he disguises his true motives.

I will say this one more time. I have already made several complaints about sexual correlation and the way people take me. I am not as gay or bisexual some people make me out to be. My focus has always been on men. I feel right now, my words are neglected and battered by aggression, chauvenism, and hatred by barbarians who are unwilling to let go of what they want and what they want to believe. They either hate how their aggression reflects on them, or they hate that they do not have the dominance that they want. I see it as an extremely violent argument. I do not think it is necessary to be gay for world peace.
That being said, with the way people take me in talking to men and women, guys, I am not sexually minded the way you are. I take conversation as conversation. I've already seen so many instances where guys have my conversations framed in the gutter of their own mind. It is times like these where I am driven as the cunt and prude. I really can be sexual, but most people go way too far with sexual correlations and how people take me and frame me besides just being arrogant.
Just because I agree, have something in common, or carry on a conversation with someone, does not mean that there is a sexual agenda to it. Because of the relentlessness of the aggression and disputes of others, I do feel sexually repressed sometimes because I get angry and turned off by assumptions made. Also, because of the way people gossip and talk, it makes it more difficult for me to naturally hook up with someone and show interest because I am aware of the way people assume about me and drown my voice at the same time. I really hate it when people do get away with some of their aggressions. They are not winners. There is no worth in their words.