Yay more pest control

~making things clear on my end, whether or not I will ever have a voice in this world, due to me being poor~

I know how some drama has gone recently. Because some people may be so stuck on themselves and egocentric, what seems clear to them, is Burmuda and abstract to me....

First off, I remain comfortably single. Despite sexual harassment, violent pigeon-holing, and obsessions of others, I still remain single. I may eventually find someone to have a crush on, until then, I'm very single.

I have been picking up on a few things. There has always been the regular harassments and sadism. One of these days, it just may click with the people who are too full of themselves.

Right now, the main hateful disputes deal with arrogant bisexuality and being fertile.

In the matrix, it does get confusing. I will only talk about the people I have the biggest hunch with: Stacy that (WAS IN A CHURCH YOUTH GROUP YEARS AGO), the Kardashians mainly Kim and Kourtney, and my ORU roommate Serena. It really does disgust me that Stacy has been arrogantly stalking me this whole time. I hate her. I hate her arrogance and "queen," mentality the most. I have been getting a lot of that sadism from her. Good for you that you made the popular list. Like you should have learned in high school, being pretty isn't everything, and just because you are pretty doesn't mean everyone wants to do you OR THAT YOU'RE ENTITLED TO FUCK WHOEVER YOU WANT. I AM NOWHERE NEAR WANTING TO HAVE ANY BISEXUAL RELATIONSHIP WITH YOUR ARROGANT ASS. None of them on the matrix list. I'm fed up with the arrogance, the provoking, the harassment of it all. I'm sure there are plenty of other people who would want to do you though, so no worries.
As for Serena, she was just a friend. If she got any other impression, it was never meant to be further than a friend. I think she is beautiful. But like I said, just because a person is attractive, it means just that. I hate how desperate some people are. Some men are simply perverts and it is only what they want.
There are very few women in the world I would even want to be bisexual with. I know people have been so obsessed with it over me. I would say I am 85% straight and 15% bisexual. I want a man. A man has been all I've ever wanted. Men do sexually harass, but women have been guilty of sexual abuse and harassment just as well. I do stay single when there is obviously no one interested in me and no one that I am interested in. Some systems would accuse me of rape, while I say I am being lied about and desperately hated on. I stay to myself. Often, I really do like keeping to myself. There has been so much hatefulness and sexual abuse and harassment lately, I am not desiring anyone. I desire myself, fuck you very much.
Next is the baby issue. If I'm not good enough to mother a man's baby, it is his choice. At the same time, nothing will break my stride (not meant to be catty towards one specific person)(phrase of expression) even though he has been in on some gossip (burmuda and still want him to get shot). That doesn't mean I plan on raping him or choose to not take "no," for an answer either. I keep a lot of baby thoughts to myself. When I'm ready, I'm ready. I am the only person supporting me right now. I'm even open minded to go to a fertility clinic or adoption. If I run into a man who does, than it is something that is personally and privately discussed between us. When I make my choice is when I make my choice.
I really hate that I have to have this discussion like this out in the open. I never planned for my life to be overexploited so much, to have to endure so much hate, and to have to deal with whatever comes my way in my time and my own decisive way.