Dear Anderson

I'll begin with the Gadaffi news piece. There is nothing really new. I havn't noticed any change. Whoever has been dictating my life has been hateful, desperate, and such a dumbass. It seems as if there are so many people involved in networking, it is hard to decipher who is responsible for what. Yes, of course, I'm not the only person who is suffering unemployment. But in adding on to more down to earth reality, not many people have comparably been taken advantage of in the media as I have. I feel like I'm constantly falling through the cracks and the injustice to me is constantly unnoticed while my dictators are desperately looking for more excuses to call me "inadequate," and failing to see how many fallacies, flaws, rigs, and irrelevance they use in their communism/socialism to dictate my life.
Usually, I am bothered by being expected to "answer," to someone. It goes back to how complicated I am and that there are some exceptions that I would work with. I deny that I am loyal to anyone. I understand quietness can be taken as loyalty, but with so many inadequate observers, that judgement is additionally flawed. I consider myself to be very on my own and alone in this world. Yes, there are times that I take action for some things, but I am completely on my own.
In a different state of mind, I think it should be encouraged that there are more askers in the world. I think the world would be a much better place if people would just stop to think to ask people and realize that people have a mind of their own and people aren't always on the same page. Unfortunately, there are very few people who are mature enough to understand differences in how questions are asked. There is a difference between a subjectifying question and a free question. There is also a difference between interrogation (where people really think they are asking and not assuming or pigeon-holing), and personally asking a clear and straight to a point question. There are just a number of things that should be encouraged that a large number of people are not intelligent or mature enough to handle. And another opinion, I don't think people are mature enough to understand the limits of their own emotions and making accurate and sound judgement.

Speaking of emotions, I have been getting so many homicidal emotions this past year. You may be trying to show a friendly or sarcastically friendly guesture with Snooki to keep things calm and break the ice a little. I really like to be taken seriously. You did a better job when you had Sarah the reporter in Libya. While some people would say I deserve more punishment for being homicidal; I say they are such nauseating pigs and I am very unashamedly angry for myself. With the way my survival has been rigged, I do see it as self defense. But of course, since it has been rigged, I will never be seen as defending for myself. I will be seen as the psycho who is "the most guilty," and "inadequate and needs help." I just need help in dealing with corruption, communism, and dictatorship. Whatever dumbass has been taking control of my life, I really would like to see dead. I have been abused in a number of ways in addition to suffering corruption in trying to survive.
I have faced a lot of discrimination in the workplace. Of course even at a CEO level, there should be no discrimination, but even at a minimum wage job: "Oh really? I didn't know I had to have a D cup in order to be qualified to have a job." There is so much corruption and gossip that it is impossible for me to defend myself. Some people are violently demanding in treating me as a "subject." Again, while no personal questions are asked, I do feel people make assumptions and judgement about me and jump to the most extreme conclusions without me even doing anything at all. I feel I am judged and discriminated against for political views, for class of wealth, for having my own personality. I am extremely belittled and underestimated and then thrown at the rocker "Pink," to be further sexually abused, coddled, and nauseated. It is the real truth that I have faced a lot of discrimination and even hate crimes in the workplace.
I am waiting to be found. I am waiting for my stalkers, tyranists, and dictators to be found and have the right person targeted and punished rather than being my stalkers scapegoat. I am waiting for people to accept that I have a mind of my own and waiting for someone to hear what I have to say compared to relying on other people's gossip and the things that they desperately and hatefully say about me.

As for Snooki,...................... It is nice to have a friendly gesture, but I am anorexic. I have actually only watched a few episodes. Not knowing how much I am connected to the show, I have referred to the show as another tabloid. If people are being sincere about Nicole being a codename for being a "hooker," that is denied as well. It isn't that I'm even out to get Snooki. If she enjoys her world and her life and likes herself for who she is, great for her. When the ball is in my court, I see it as another tabloid and strategy of agenda where people may be trying to make exploits about me for whatever purpose it is.
Regardless of how many extreme and desperate people want to control, exploit, and take advantage of me within the media and other places, I WILL NEVER BE SUBJECTED TO IT. Just because some control falls into the wrong hands, it doesn't mean that I see myself as anyone's slave. People may eventually get it. I have remained a person of leisure and to have occasional gossip, comments, and expressions. What is it I want? It was already mentioned in the paragraph right before Snooki. There is a lot of people who need to come down off of their high horse and get a little more real with themselves. I also want to live on my own, have a decent salary and a job, and keep beating some users and abusers off of me.