Dear Anderson

You may already be planning to disappoint me in someway. I request before you do that, to give me a breather and show some support for awhile and let me be the one to help you get me. I have been very exhausted lately and havn't been paying a lot of attention to your show. I will eventually be rested up, but in the meantime, I will try to pay attention unless you do get too disappointing.
It is probably obvious with how much I hate my life.
I may not completely understand the conspiracy, matrix, or system of it all yet, but there have been some people I have been taking notes on. Personally, I think it is nothing but a waste of time, and I have such an undescribable anger that someone has been given the entitlement to waste my time. This matrix, system, set up, and rigs was never my choice. Although there are so many people who would want to say I am the one who is the control freak, there is such a long list of things that I am not responsible for whatsoever. Some people do live to make me miserable with how they rape my life.
Not only will the people responsible never be fair, but it isn't fair with how hard I've worked in my life, some of the choices I have already made, and some dreams I have, to have to experience a communist life like this.
There is some partial belief with the whole snitch concept and I must be up against some sort of black market multimillion dollar illegal drug corporation. I also think there has to be something more to it than whatever and however I am being "protected," from some drug thugs.
Some people want to demonize and accuse me to death of dogs and beastiality (which I have thought is nothing other than their jealousy of who I am as a person and their desperate attempts to ruin, slander, and desperately labelize my name).
Some people want me to be gay and be tormented by women and put it on me that I'm the one who is the "pervert."
Some people take the politcal stigma extremely seriously and I get caught up in extremist groups and unintelligable pigeon-holing when those extremist people are making judgement about me. Some people who are extreme in gay support would say that they believe they are supreme because they are bisexual and say that I must be closed-minded and inferior because I want to be straight. I never had any sort of supremacy battle over couple preference in the first place.
There are also endless lists of political issues where people fail to see me in my down to earth world and have extremely unreasonable expectations and judgement over who I am as a person.
It really does disgust me that some people really think they deserve to be so communistic and make so many calls over my life. It disgusts me how desperate people are with tormenting me by always being told what to do by someone. It is like people live to condescend me constantly and tell me what to do. They hatefully are in such serious denial with their own personal problems and I will always be the scapegoat where "I am the one who is incapable of being independent or incapable of doing anything at all." People will always be desperate to say that.
I don't understand the matrix. But in the system, I've learned how many hateful and desperate psychos there are in the world. So many enemies and sadists. I just don't get it. I don't get it at all.
I do not understand why my life is the way it is.