Anxiety

Today is a day I hate my figurative blindness.

Some man drama
Some men I don't know how to take
Some men, remind me continuously how much they watch me

I wish I knew more to be more decisive
Back to hate feeling blind

I will say once more, if it is Brandon B., I have seen him as a friend, and sometimes a brother. I'm pretty sure I've cussed him out a few times. If I am accused of being an affairee of his, I deny it. The Brandon at TGI Fridays represented himself in my eyes and was an asshole Jekyl and Hyde.
I'm still pissed with the experience of War of the Worlds with being caught by surprise just how much and not really sure how many people have been watching me.

Moscow? I feel blind. He is another man I have a strong hunch that wants to kill me. I'm not sure how I should take other people who could possibly represent him. I don't know if the man I met even represents himself or if it ends in some kind of capitalist mystery or one specific man. I don't know how to be waitful. I don't know what I should be expecting.

Perm?

I already see some responses for some of my complaints and as much as I hate some past experiences, can't help but feel a little awkward and anxious at how some other people may feel. I also feel uncomfortable over other people possibly being possessive or taking too much control. I will acknowledge that some people are taking action to do the right thing.
Will there be a big revenge or is it a time where nobody even cares to have such feelings?