Vacationing and Other Thoughts

I am having my highs and lows this week. Other than spending a lot of personal time with my daughter (where I have my other "mood swings,") my best high was being approved for my first choice apartment. I was mostly expecting it, but I had some anxiety because I have had a little bit of a bumpy financial past. I had 3 main apartments to choose from, but I had to pick this one because it is the most convenient. I really liked the amount of space and interior a little better at the other two apartments, but they didn't have as much of a convenience as the one that I chose. I'm so excited. I have been wanting to get out of Cumberland and my parent's home for a long time. While I have a load of stresses to gain; I have a bigger load of stresses to lose. It is a main goal that I will finally be able to achieve. I will eventually be able to think about getting to my points B,C, and D soon, and I'm sad because I feel I should have made it further in life by now. I probably will have a low key job for the rest of my life, but there is still the thought of stay-at-home online work and possibly owning my own business. I'm sure I will still have more options ahead, and there should especially be more job opportunities in Pittsburgh. I could see myself stay at my merchandising job a year or more and hoping that there will be a full-time opening. If not, I will probably be doing the same work drill. Points B,C, and D will eventually be bridges I can cross. I just found this out today, and can't help but rant more about it and my future a little more. It is such a big deal. I have other moving priorities to work out, but now I have got to chill in the vacation time that I have. I've spent more money than what I wanted to spend, but IT IS VACATION. I got my crab legs and have had a lot of other fun. I'm so upset over the weather though. It was cold today and nobody was even at an outdoor pool and especially not at the beach. There is supposed to be some kind of coastal flood tomorrow where there is a high tide and strong current, so especially no swimming tomorrow. We are leaving Friday, and I'm hoping the current won't be strong that day. I want to swim on the beach anyway (checkout is at 10:00am!) but we won't have the convenience of the hotel when we are done. The boardwalk along the beach at least has a place to spray the sand off, and I'm sure the hotel won't mind if we use their bathroom lobby. I've made sure to not feel like the vacation has felt too wasted. We have done a lot to keep ourselves entertained and I think Mitzi likes the indoor pool better than the outdoor pool and the beach but she probably likes the outdoor pool the best. We could get a hotel to swim in an indoor pool anytime, but we still at least have all the free time to do whatever the hell we damn well please. (Her virgin ears are very covered now). We are on the beach only 2 days of 5 because the weather is that bad. There was a really bad accident along the way that kept traffic jammed for at least an hour. There were definitely injuries and possibly a death. I'm just saying things could always be worse and I hope we have God's protection on the ride home too. She had a blast at the trampoline park today with the foam pit and I think there might be a trampoline park in Pittsburgh too that I have yet to check out, but I'm so glad that Pittsburgh has one too. So many different things racing through my mind right now...........Man drama: not sure about everything that is going on with that either but try to take it easy and always knowing there could be something to stress over. Like there is nothing to stress over now. taking it easy in whatever way I can. Right now, I have a lot of different things going on and distractions that keep my mind off of it some, but do I want to fall through more cracks because I don't have the time or full focus? I could always be better off without another Rae Rae or made to feel like a CoCo Channel, but I still wonder............