As the Sarah turns

Not only did I miss a show today, I looked like crap. Some guys are around the least expected times. I don't think I'm always being watched 24/7 by whoever, but still, I wish I was more prepared. I'm already catching onto some things, but I will have to watch the show tmw to catch onto more things.
I am anorexic to all claims that Brian Williams may make. All of the characters with "Williams," as the last name I'm anorexic to. I like Wendy Williams and sometimes feel both awkward and confused of what her real character could be representing. I havn't looked up her real husband yet but I did take note that they have been married for 16 years. Anorexic.
If it is just Seth or the complete show that is being kind and complimenting I don't know, but I appreciated some of the warmth with the little I've picked up on. While people don't literally call me, "Frieda," it is the name that is in between the lines that I sometimes pick up on with different people that I get stranded with. This could be a time where Seth or the show just wants to lie to keep my emotions calm, but either way, I'll acknowledge the approach. I still have nothing against Selma. I think it is neat that Jeniffer Connely named one of her kids "Kai." I left that out in the conversation the other day when I was talking to Seth. It was actually going to be a girl name but I can see how it can be a boy name too. With the girl name it means: deep as the sea, but I'm not sure what it means for the boy name. I know it is a Hawaiian name for a girl, but it could be either Asian or Hawaiian for a boy. I still like the name.
I think Seth could be making his Burlusconi a little more obvious but I also percieve him as still leading me on. I feel the need to step back but at the same time, he still wants me around. I'll keep sticking with what I had said a few days ago that I'm in between leisure and paying attention to him for a reason. There is part of me that doesn't like the idea of being falsely emotionally lead on.
I have also been thinking about the other end of the spectrum of people he could be representing. This is a time where capitalism and snowflakes get difficult. I really hate the idea of comparing guys sometimes. If there is a capitalistic share, I may not feel the same way about one guy as I would another. Right now, I think there is a possibility of 5 or 6 guys that he could have shares with and I will say that I wouldn't have the same emotions for each individual as I would the actual source. I think the effort to connect and have some kind of talk or whatever is still nice, but snowflakes. snowflakes snowflakes snowflakes. With the way I've already connected with some guys, I don't want to write about them and include them in this blog. I would want it to be more personal and less exploitive for me to be one on one with them. I could always go a different leisure route and just might end up writing some things about some people, but right now, I really don't want to elaborate on most of the guys.
There is only one guy that I will. I can already tell he likes the extra attention and being in the spotlight. He is already out there in the digital world and very extroverted. Amish Jim. Besides meeting him over a weekend in person which was actually a couple of years ago, he still makes digital connections. I think he is giving some kind of apology or take back in his own way with the way he has already acted. There was already an acknowledgement about bad timing. I'm not that crazy about him. I may not have seen the full potential of his bad, but the extent I've seen of his bad runs me off. He can be really insulting and offending.
Seth gives me a different impression than Jim. I consider his snowflake to be different than Jim's snowflake. I'm going to stop with anymore comparison, but sometimes, capitalism brings itself on itself.

I wonder who the real source is of the fisherman foodstamp? I have 2 guesses on that and I got a little bit of a laugh out of it.

I can't think of anything else in today's "soap opera." Just a chill day.