Hey You....

Personally, I still feel in fear, threatened, and intimidated to talk to you and face you, and I don't like that... I have no other choice than to believe in your Stockholm and I like the thing we have going on, but there is so much that I still don't understand about it and I wish you would give me a better peace of mind. I want to believe I am more than lusted for and cared for and that you would mean to protect me in some way. Sure, you would use your Stockholm to get my attention and make me aware of your existence, but what comes next? Are you always going to be this godlike complex that lives in rewards and punishments according to how much ever I live to please you, I will eventually be rewarded with you? Don't get me wrong Mr. Mucho Swavay, I find you very attractive and I want to believe you care, but so many times, some men will just not recognize the complex they are living in with me at all. I need the normal relationship. Annie Lennox "Talk to Me Like Lovers Do...." Is it that you would think a secret relationship makes any difference when the worlds jealousy rears its ugly head and the way it already has? I need you to understand that I still feel hurt by you where we are still at a distance. I wonder if you fear me screaming "rape," too much and you would ruin whatever we could be because you are in fear of me and being rejected or hurt in some way... It looks like you have already done something to betray me, and I just don't understand why you would be another guy who purposefully throws himself on me after he has betrayed me and either thinking I would beg for him or seeking to humiliate me and be in his own glory? I really don't know what you have done to betray me, but it isn't safe to be a pig with me and I will scream rape if you mean to intentionally hurt me with your self flattery being said in a stockholmed way. I hope you give me a better peace of mind soon and something to believe. Whatever reason you want to keep me intimidated if you want to care about me or want me to care about you...