I wish I could NOW

I jumped into some travel research but then my bubble burst: My mother coincidentally mentioned that on Sat thru Tue (the day I had planned tue or wed) they are going to be going out of town. Those same 4 days. I don't have a babysitter for Mitzi. I'm sure there could be a few different people who could watch her a few different hours but I have no one that I know who could watch her for 4 days. I can be spontaneous, but not always spontaneous like that. I hope you don't hold it against me too much. I still plan on coming to Nashville for a few days. If you're in a rush and on edge, I may be able to mid August sometime. I can definitely push the schedule up. ..... While haven't completing all my homework; I have done a little. I know Allison literally wrote some songs. While she didn't write scripture for scripture of the bible, I know great minds can think alike with worse or better. (I bet she somehow did get some cues or phrases off me). What a big history she has. While a lesbian label could be put on me for being attracted to her identity; it really is like saying: "What nice shoes you have Allison. What nice albums you have with the Dead Weather." Sara Barellis was one I just had to laugh at and with the most. "Buy my car sticker and poster." I especially disowned her at a later time with some songs and identity traits. There has been a certain egocentrism that gets forced into me at times that are coming and going. It scares me with the way I don't understand how it works, where it comes from, why, and how it seems I could matter so much with the people in a big way. With you, I know there is still a story there that could be answered. I know you're in my head and around some. While I could go on some guesses and hunches with who your present love interests are, I would guess Allison would be one of them. I'm glad I can acknowledge you have some kind of crush or thing for me. I discovered that both of your exes have never remarried. Allison is a single one too. While there can be noticeable things; the stress and paranoia of all your other women could ruin a moment or however many brief moments. I don't want to ruin it too much yet. I think some people can sometimes care too much about all of the things to stress over when they should stop and smell the roses more. While being naïve can kill; I think skepticism can kill too. When a person has no choice to be confidently and intelligently skeptical, they just do. I sometimes run in my own opinionated tangents, but I hope you don't mind my conversations and ramblings too much. ...I'm not sure where Icarus is going. I never planned on answering to "Maleficent." Even though it is Angelina Jolie, I didn't like the way I could have been identified with her. Someone is out to trash my maternal name in a mean and far fetched way with Mitzi. Sure I wouldn't mind you being a lifelong friend or more, but that was some pretty terrible trash talk too in regards to my maternity. "This was done on purpose as punishment for blogging in my most severe skepticism of the world." shaking my head. ... I'm sorry I can't see you so soon Jack. I got my own hopes to go out on a spur like that, but I'm just not going to be able to. Until then, goodnight Jack. xo