I wish I could NOW

I jumped into some travel research but then my bubble burst: My mother coincidentally mentioned that on Sat thru Tue (the day I had planned tue or wed) they are going to be going out of town. Those same 4 days. I don't have a babysitter for Mitzi. I'm sure there could be a few different people who could watch her a few different hours but I have no one that I know who could watch her for 4 days. I can be spontaneous, but not always spontaneous like that. I hope you don't hold it against me too much. I still plan on coming to Nashville for a few days. If you're in a rush and on edge, I may be able to mid August sometime. I can definitely push the schedule up. ..... While haven't completing all my homework; I have done a little. I know Allison literally wrote some songs. While she didn't write scripture for scripture of the bible, I know great minds can think alike with worse or better. (I bet she somehow did get some cues or phrases off me). What a big history she has. While a lesbian label could be put on me for being attracted to her identity; it really is like saying: "What nice shoes you have Allison. What nice albums you have with the Dead Weather." Sara Barellis was one I just had to laugh at and with the most. "Buy my car sticker and poster." I especially disowned her at a later time with some songs and identity traits. There has been a certain egocentrism that gets forced into me at times that are coming and going. It scares me with the way I don't understand how it works, where it comes from, why, and how it seems I could matter so much with the people in a big way. With you, I know there is still a story there that could be answered. I know you're in my head and around some. While I could go on some guesses and hunches with who your present love interests are, I would guess Allison would be one of them. I'm glad I can acknowledge you have some kind of crush or thing for me. I discovered that both of your exes have never remarried. Allison is a single one too. While there can be noticeable things; the stress and paranoia of all your other women could ruin a moment or however many brief moments. I don't want to ruin it too much yet. I think some people can sometimes care too much about all of the things to stress over when they should stop and smell the roses more. While being naïve can kill; I think skepticism can kill too. When a person has no choice to be confidently and intelligently skeptical, they just do. I sometimes run in my own opinionated tangents, but I hope you don't mind my conversations and ramblings too much. ...I'm not sure where Icarus is going. I never planned on answering to "Maleficent." Even though it is Angelina Jolie, I didn't like the way I could have been identified with her. Someone is out to trash my maternal name in a mean and far fetched way with Mitzi. Sure I wouldn't mind you being a lifelong friend or more, but that was some pretty terrible trash talk too in regards to my maternity. "This was done on purpose as punishment for blogging in my most severe skepticism of the world." shaking my head. ... I'm sorry I can't see you so soon Jack. I got my own hopes to go out on a spur like that, but I'm just not going to be able to. Until then, goodnight Jack. xo

Not a Whole Lot Going on Really

Well~ Well Jack, someone I thought was a senator of yours continues to give himself too much credit and credit to a she devil who has no credit with me at all. (Koala Bear reference). It was mostly David that I was keeping stared down with Denzel when I was staring at you and him both. I felt a kill the most from him at a time. David is way too shady and unfair. He lies too much. Josh Myron is giving himself a lot of credit off you too. He was most ready to be too vain and take me for what I'm worth with: "I'm not the one letting go." I'm not too surprised with the ones who have already let me down. You yourself, are still shady in some ways. I think I could trust you with the truth more than David at this point. The nerve of Paris and that dude to keep testing me like that after I get angry like that. I hate when people immaturely seek to torment like that. They're not the first people who have tested me or been in denial. He had a slight chance, but I'm not into threesomes or being bisexual either. It's been awhile since I've talked to you. You mostly ran me off one day when you were coaxing me into "sucking it" more for you. It is a situation that you shouldn't have toyed with me with. Even if you were joking; I don't think being told to "suck it," is funny at all. Even when figuratively speaking. If you really wanted, you could count this blog as figuratively sucking it, but I am leisurely coming to you rather than being told. .... David has backed off and left me alone and lonelier in another case some, but I would think he still has a serious and threatening possessiveness of me. Speaking of being lonely, I have a feeling I could be getting isolated and lonely in the worst way soon, and it isn't going to be the only instance I've out survived. Sometimes some isolation can get pretty harsh. I thought I'd have a final say and breath before I had to hold my breath again. ....... I hope you are well Jack.