shaking my head

Who's my daddy? Everything is really just all fun and games and there is no harm intended from you in this instance. Ok, I will have to buy the face value statement. ... I'm still not liking the look of things overall. While there is still a lot of negative things and my pessimism, you seem to want to have another fresh approach. ... Do you really feel I have swept you off your feet? Maybe a lot of it is you don't like the fighting and lack of peacefulness either, but reliving the same nightmare and same story isn't going to make things better. It isn't that I want to intentionally cheat and bomb you in a patterned way on my end. I still don't see myself as the number 1 bad man between the both of us. How much of a Hank Moody would you personally consider yourself? I think Pamela is a likeable character and without meaning to trash talk her; I would be suspicious that you and her probably have had a thing going on and could even be presently have something going on. While you may want to come off in a friendly and peaceful way; I really think this could be another trick rolled up your sleeve with your intention to lead me on to hurt me. You know I like Lenny. You've grown to become a gamester terrorist and I am bothered by the way you want to sucker me in to hurt me and just don't want to drop it and leave me alone. It could be that I'm too pessimistic, but you've already given me a lot of reasons as to why I should be more of a pessimist. When there are a lot of negative things that have already gone on and keep going on and my pessimism is still there, it is hard to fuel a fire to a relationship. I want to love and feel loved and return and know that you would want my love, but some cat and mouse games don't always match the criteria. I can't stand the heartache in the cat and mouse game. I'm probably not the only puppy (who is still not entirely a puppy) you have come across, and you probably have other women you still want to play me with. I feel damaged and will probably feel more damaged if I were to sucker myself in and stay. I'm around and here in my own way, but I don't have the strength or emotional want to get my hopes up. I just don't want to get my hopes up and throw myself back in your game. It's painful and I think you're asking too much in wanting me to be your fool. I'm around and here in some ways but I am keeping my stance that I have given up on you. I'm not going to be looking around for other options of men for awhile; you know I refuse to be a lesbian.