Finish Done Finish Done

~Feeling like you want to make nothing but a talker out of me who doesn't mean what she says. ~ I guess you need more closure? David, at this point, you really have made me lose a lot of trust in you. I can't trust who YOU SAY you are or WHOEVER IT IS YOU ARE. I got the message in Travel in Leisure about you giving me the credit of Selma, and that credit was a lose/ lose too. While you may not be cheating on me with YOUR mystery wife that I never knew about; I lose you and you also have a wrong impression of who I am and how I see myself. We just hit too many bumps in the road: whoever you are; your cheats, your backstabs; you leaving me alone and in too much mystery; increased level in suspicion of you wanting to trick, fool, and frame me; the fact that you have a killer disease. I know I have messed up with you too on my end, and it isn't that I'm being entirely one-sided, but I do blame you the most for losing me. I won't lie that I have several other interests that I find very attractive, but in all honesty, I think they would most likely end up to a close same storyline as you if I were to try to seriously continue on more. I don't think it is going to work out for any of my interests being the type of men they are and the type of woman I am. There is a difference in being a swinger and a single slut and I know that I am the latter. I hate when men want to use it against me for being a single slut that I would be willing to be in a swinger or in an open lifestyle. I know I want to be in a serious and committed relationship. I know it has been awhile since I've actually slept with someone but I'm sure men get my slutty vibe. While I know I have my interests and attractions, I'm back to being a single woman who isn't fully stuck on anyone.