3000, Man who takes his time/ Man of mystery......

"Not about making out in the backseat." lol ....... I really feel left to guess more than anything. You could have your mind made up or you could be playing the game. Credibility, credibility. At first, you could have seemed to be in the Senate for Jon or Shawn. Some other possible men at some other random times. ..... Maybe you are out to get your ex wife back, or showing more seriousness for your "2nd" one. ... I don't want Jon back in the most extreme, indefinite NO way. Shawn may not be as bad as Jon, but I know he can be a totalitarian and has his own way of getting sick and murderous. Shawn has just fucked things up way too much and any chances of us ever being in a relationship are beyond repair. I think he is one to be more scared of for the obvious local reason. We may have more of a likeliness of happening to bump into the other while out at the market, but it's not like he would publicly make a big move to jump me or anything. ...... I wonder a little how much you could be included in some of my history. I know I don't know your personal timeline. I'm sorry if you have and I missed out on you and was totally clueless. It's not that you would never have been attractive enough. If I don't see a guy on my radar; I just don't. If you did have a past issue with me, I'm not really sure what your issues are. I know I've used the term through "hell or highwater" before, but it is a phrase anyone could use really. I'm not sure what all gossip was going on. It wasn't SNL that was just being the commie either. I'm not too ashamed of the drama queen I was. It was a big deal to have been put on the spot and the center of attention in so many ways. I never knew where the half of it came from or what it all actually even was. I was talked about in several different ways, and I couldn't stand just how possessive people were in manipulations, blackmails, and thinking they had me owned. I just don't get the exploit of it all or how some people could have such a god complex and totalitarian nerve.... In your recent video, it almost looks like you could have been sharing a conversation with Justin and Dillon. Dillon wasn't really around for that long. Justin is a different story. But Dillon seems to be a member of your band. lol. Besides the blow with Rob Lowe, I did see a few other signs, but I just didn't like Dillon's approach. He seemed to be more into 2 or 3 of the other girls and I lost my will to care after awhile...... 3,000 steps... There have been times where I become more impatient and pressuring than other times. When I had my share with MIA "Paper Planes," a lot of it had to do with "500 Days of Summer" and the Stockholm structure. If you had your own way of wanting to court and get to know me, I really think it is sweet. After a certain period of time and living under a certain kind of dominance, it gets the better of me. Why don't I ever see this man in person? Why don't I ever go on any real dates? I'm sorry to say I'm no virgin to the Stockholm structured courtship, but I have been in a lot of relationships like that where I have never seriously not ever met the person that I had been "seeing" for a long period of time. It is why I have extra pressure. Some men have their own extents of being chauvinistic; strict with their own social rules; double standards; cheaters. Too many men never knew how to have a real conversation or connection and then go ape shit over my gossip or way I had to put my thoughts or ventilations out there. They just didn't get their unfairness, chauvinism, double standards, and prejudices and further expect me not to be mad or upset like it was nothing. ...... I'm not the type to use a reputation against a person too much. I guess you aren't the Hank Moody you could be biased to be. Why did you have to go and say "Daniel Craig," is one of the least attractive James Bonds? Are you really the beauty contest type? lol I do find him to be an attractive man. There is some positivity that you could be getting jealous over me. You have your own cliquishness that I don't know about where you obviously would favor Jon over Bond, but I like Bond better. I think I was an under dog to Daniel Craig at one time but he seems pretty serious about staying faithful to his wife. You make me wonder what that little explosion was. You are my main man and center of attention. I think about you often. The thing you need to worry about is how long your 3,000 steps are going to take and keeping me convinced and attached. Of all the times I had to go along with a structured Stockholm, not one man came across the finish line in having a normal and person in person relationship. Although I had my own drama and issues it was like who was I trying to kid for the last time a long time ago that any of those relationships would ever come to pass?