Hi David

Just got through the second season of "Californication." It was sad to see the rocker dude die. He reminds me of Chris Cornell a little and a little like Justin the DJ too. lol. No. I got through the first half of "Twin Peaks." At first I wasn't sure if I got the right movie, but I guess you will be in the second DVD. So, the movie was done in the 90s and not intended to make a pass to me at the time. But since you do have some of your made up roles, why not have used that to keep me baited more? lol ha. I still don't completely understand the whole transvestite thing. Most of the time I have taken it as playfulness. I even took it as playfulness when I was hanging out with Jimmy Fallon at the time. But, there were things he was offensive over, disagreements we had, and his moments of being a mysterious creeper. However, there have been times where I was made to take a sick beating and where it was meant as an offensive insult. You have me convinced that you are baiting me with a playful compliment of being my number 1 fan. lol. It really is hard to believe that you would be so gungho sold on me. ...... I'm seeing more arbitrage and a probable and impossible gossip. Maybe your ex wants you back or you have some more women after you, or other people are confused with who is talking to who. .. Dillon, TJ, and Amelia. I was really creeped out the other night at work. I am assuming that TJ is being the biggest loyal dog for Amelia, and I don't appreciate his creepiness and probable crackhead threats. Whatever they are full of is whatever they are full of. It isn't my fault that they would keep themselves fucked in their own capitalism and shares the way they do. I'm not sorry for one thing I've said against Stacy. I was never close to Amelia and really never cared to make any kind of connection. I have no apology to TJ or Dillon with whatever bad guy they want me to be. Dillon. It really doesn't look like he is going in the direction of wanting to make the bad guy of me. He is another who has an AIDs label on him. I know I don't know that truth either and I'm not sure what to say with the baby pass. Well, I guess if it was him who was wanting to walk the tight rope from one tower to another, Dillon won't make it on my tight rope. I'm still the most interested in you. If Dillon does want to win with me and have my baby he has to be a better convincer and use the stairs. .... I really don't like it when there is a lot of gossip in the dark, when I don't know what to believe, and when I am especially defenselessly forced into making a choice when I know I am unsure of information. In my social world, it is always better to ask than assume. People do make the mistake of terrible judgments, assumptions, and gossip and the most terrible have no shame and expect everything to be a cake walk regardless of their foul mouth. ... I am so glad I have your emotional support against Dillon. It did come from Rob too. He is just as guilty in the arbitrage. I know I don't care about Rob like that though. I'm glad you care to continue to score more points with me. Although I have my hesitancies with how much of a wanted ladies man you are; I can only force myself to stay confident for you. My other main hesitancy is with the HIV virus. I am getting a physical soon. I can't help but stay attracted and clingy with you but am I in the right mind to continue to lead you on back in any which way when it comes to being in a relationship? Am I in the right mind to play with our sexual fire? I don't know how to slap myself in the face and wouldn't trust a person who thinks they could do it in the right way for several reasons. My Mecca has always been too hard for anyone to control. I have Skype now. Just recently got it and have never used it before. I don't know if you would be comfortable in having a private conversation over the web, but if you ever did want to make a better connection... Don Drapers Don Drapers, will or can they ever see or beat the social barrier challenge? Why do some Don Drapers lead on or try to go for it?

3000, Man who takes his time/ Man of mystery......

"Not about making out in the backseat." lol ....... I really feel left to guess more than anything. You could have your mind made up or you could be playing the game. Credibility, credibility. At first, you could have seemed to be in the Senate for Jon or Shawn. Some other possible men at some other random times. ..... Maybe you are out to get your ex wife back, or showing more seriousness for your "2nd" one. ... I don't want Jon back in the most extreme, indefinite NO way. Shawn may not be as bad as Jon, but I know he can be a totalitarian and has his own way of getting sick and murderous. Shawn has just fucked things up way too much and any chances of us ever being in a relationship are beyond repair. I think he is one to be more scared of for the obvious local reason. We may have more of a likeliness of happening to bump into the other while out at the market, but it's not like he would publicly make a big move to jump me or anything. ...... I wonder a little how much you could be included in some of my history. I know I don't know your personal timeline. I'm sorry if you have and I missed out on you and was totally clueless. It's not that you would never have been attractive enough. If I don't see a guy on my radar; I just don't. If you did have a past issue with me, I'm not really sure what your issues are. I know I've used the term through "hell or highwater" before, but it is a phrase anyone could use really. I'm not sure what all gossip was going on. It wasn't SNL that was just being the commie either. I'm not too ashamed of the drama queen I was. It was a big deal to have been put on the spot and the center of attention in so many ways. I never knew where the half of it came from or what it all actually even was. I was talked about in several different ways, and I couldn't stand just how possessive people were in manipulations, blackmails, and thinking they had me owned. I just don't get the exploit of it all or how some people could have such a god complex and totalitarian nerve.... In your recent video, it almost looks like you could have been sharing a conversation with Justin and Dillon. Dillon wasn't really around for that long. Justin is a different story. But Dillon seems to be a member of your band. lol. Besides the blow with Rob Lowe, I did see a few other signs, but I just didn't like Dillon's approach. He seemed to be more into 2 or 3 of the other girls and I lost my will to care after awhile...... 3,000 steps... There have been times where I become more impatient and pressuring than other times. When I had my share with MIA "Paper Planes," a lot of it had to do with "500 Days of Summer" and the Stockholm structure. If you had your own way of wanting to court and get to know me, I really think it is sweet. After a certain period of time and living under a certain kind of dominance, it gets the better of me. Why don't I ever see this man in person? Why don't I ever go on any real dates? I'm sorry to say I'm no virgin to the Stockholm structured courtship, but I have been in a lot of relationships like that where I have never seriously not ever met the person that I had been "seeing" for a long period of time. It is why I have extra pressure. Some men have their own extents of being chauvinistic; strict with their own social rules; double standards; cheaters. Too many men never knew how to have a real conversation or connection and then go ape shit over my gossip or way I had to put my thoughts or ventilations out there. They just didn't get their unfairness, chauvinism, double standards, and prejudices and further expect me not to be mad or upset like it was nothing. ...... I'm not the type to use a reputation against a person too much. I guess you aren't the Hank Moody you could be biased to be. Why did you have to go and say "Daniel Craig," is one of the least attractive James Bonds? Are you really the beauty contest type? lol I do find him to be an attractive man. There is some positivity that you could be getting jealous over me. You have your own cliquishness that I don't know about where you obviously would favor Jon over Bond, but I like Bond better. I think I was an under dog to Daniel Craig at one time but he seems pretty serious about staying faithful to his wife. You make me wonder what that little explosion was. You are my main man and center of attention. I think about you often. The thing you need to worry about is how long your 3,000 steps are going to take and keeping me convinced and attached. Of all the times I had to go along with a structured Stockholm, not one man came across the finish line in having a normal and person in person relationship. Although I had my own drama and issues it was like who was I trying to kid for the last time a long time ago that any of those relationships would ever come to pass?