Dear Jon

Hey Jon I'm not really in a talkative mood today. I did want to say though, you had a nice Brawny man moment the other night with the turtle bash. You forced me to laugh, so I took it as: you better trust me. So many mixed signals in 2 consecutive days on "As the Jon Turns." I still don't think you're much to lean on, but you still have instances where you can be something to lean on. Still confused with a lot of things about you. I feel like there is so much gossip with some other people I should catch up on, but there are times I think it would be simply useless or just don't care. It isn't that I want to be a hermit the rest of my life, and sometimes I really do hate feeling so alone. I don't know. I have other focuses right now that aren't much about a lot of people. I don't know if it will ever get anywhere with what I'm doing, but it keeps me from being bored. I'm definitely a tired and busy mom and definitely have a focus on her. I guess I'm trying to say if you want me to do more homework or pay attention to some people, I don't know what any of your specifics are or even what you would still want right now. I'll be watching your shows anyway......