Kelly Clarkson. I think she is a very talented singer and she has made some good songs throughout the years. I think it is nice with whoever is coordinating and networking that they would connect me to have a share with her. Again, it isn't that there isn't anything personal against Kelly, I'm just tired of either being bribed off or used for entertainment. Sometimes, when I get emotional, my emotions aren't always meant for the world to know. My reality or drama is not always meant for the world to know. While it isn't my present core emotions, there have been times that I can really relate to some of her lyrics. Maybe the architect sees a larger picture where in their judgement, they think it is best to guess and exploit/foodstamp how they see me with whatever drama may be going on in the big picture. Although I like Kelly, I like the Metric acknowledgement better with: Who is the one who has control over the exploits? Who is the one who is playing Barbies? It varies with how leisurely or lenient I am. While there are no major crimes or serious offenses in this episode, I still am bothered by not understanding the control factor and the things that I can't see. I know the show isn't supposed to be about me, but I have not succumbed to the manipulations of bribery or being taken advantage of with entertainment.
Is that a little more clear or understood? Do you get what it is that I am trying to say?
Thinking around those lines, I see the domination game already coming into play:
New girl scout stripper with the name of "Oatmeal cookie?" I think I know why you are going the route of the namecall of little girl scout:
You want me to call you father or daddy and bend me over don't you?
Guess what? If this competition were to be taken seriously, Anderson is already referring to me as his mommy.............
Seth, in a different page, I seriously wouldn't mind having a person to talk about the idea of being a stripper. I totally think that it is out of character for me to do it. I really would have a difficult time going through with it. While I know for myself I have never taken any literal action of being a stripper or even a hooker, I have been seriously accused and treated like one. I've suffered real degradation in a capitalist way. I think I've lived through the worst it seems. To take the literal action of honestly being a stripper really is a different story. If I can't find a job, I would consider it to be taboo and courageous for me to push myself to go through with it. While it seems you may be already making some sexual jabs at me, I've already known I'm not the most at being: pretty, beautiful, or sexy. I think I am a decent looking chic though and know that some find me attractive. One of my phrases has always been: beauty is in the eye of the beholder. Attractiveness can vary with people.
Because you have led me on and I have a thing for you, I won't be anorexic to this jab for what it is.... I think I've already made jokes about some do-gooder posers when I call them "boy scouts." I wasn't really insinuating anything about any guy's sexuality, it was about Supermen attitudes that some guys have. Who knows, some guys may be another woman's superman one day, but I just wasn't impressed with some guys posing Superman. It looks like a superwoman to you, would save your day by bending over to your chauvenism any time at any demand. A superwoman would be whipped by your Prince attitude and be at the top of the sex object list and a professional at pleasing you. Maybe I could be a little extreme in judgement or maybe you are very sincere at wanting a professional sex object. Seth, I already said you have put a hook in me and while I am having a share with Marilyn Monroe, I would hate for it to turn into Marilyn Manson and have our song as "tainted love." You havn't even seriously been with me and don't look like you are making a serious offense to say I am a pitiful sexual disaster. Who knows, maybe you really do want to seriously try me. Not only could I smack you for using your matrix imagination too much and say you don't even know my real thing, but are you seriously a die-hard chauvenist? In my world, sex and attractiveness matters, but I think it is shallow for it to be the only thing that matters. Yeah, I have flings and such but that doesn't mean that I've never wanted to be more than just a slut. Some guys, I'm fine with that. But in the general perspective, being single isn't always something I want. I live day by day..........
In other thoughts, I think you may be keeping Josh Myron separate from your brother Josh Meyers. You really havn't been clear about your literal brother's role of capitalism and you may not even be out to gang up on me. It looks more like you could possibly be either mediating or people pleasing to diminish any supremacy games between the both of us with neither side being favored and that we are both being picked on. I really don't want any more violence in my life and could have some extent of appreciation. I've already noticed a couple of instances where some guys' ignorance has been called out. I havn't forgotten that people have referred to me as being stupid. I really don't know how the political capitalism and the rest of the entertaining capitalism came about over me, but after all this time, it looks like some of my other enemies or predators are being called ignorant. I don't live for the crowd anyway. I just want all of the damnation to stop. I have some satisfaction with the media, but I would have more satisfaction if more damnation were to stop and if I had more control over my life.
I don't know everything that is going through your head. Did it give you a serious fuss for me to use coinstar instead of a bank on an occassion or two? hahaaha Or do you see it in a different way in the matrix where you're upset that "You're wealth and values," has been devalued? I'm not sure what page you are on or if you have any serious possessiveness of me. You could be thinking in a different context.....
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