When Bollywood meets with the good old normal America

Sometimes, I get a little more quiet when meeting a new man in person.... I have considered some Bollywood men to be more dangerous and usually a little more possessive... I feel the need to talk a little more on this one. Although I gave this guy my number; there still may be odds that he won't call, or that things may not work out. It is too soon to say, but for now, I have a legitimate crush on an American man. This isn't the first American man I've talked to while talking to Mike's Bollywood; it is actually the second. Mike and I have been talking for a little more than half of a year and I have yet to meet him in person. I've noticed the severe degradation with Bollywood men to their women from the start. I've always warned them. It's like they just don't understand the high and mighty dominance they want to protect while wanting to keep their woman around, but I'm not sure how much of their own degradation hits them. It really doesn't seem often that Bollywood and America meet. This new legitimate crush is a little confusing because he looks like Mike a little and I can't help but crush on him, but I give him his own credit- for the record. Maybe Mike is thinking: good riddance. He made me feel he was upset for what could have been for the last time. While we have had a few spats and upsets; IT IS UNFAIR FOR HIM TO HAVE A DOUBLE STANDARD WITH ME NOT PROTECTING OUR LOVE WHEN HE WASN'T PROTECTING OUR LOVE ENOUGH ON HIS END EITHER. How dare he want me to feel the most guilty? I will have a little bit of a crush and care left for Mike, but the relationship is on the rocks that much more and it may fade that much more. I seriously don't mind giving Captain America more of a chance and getting to know him more. He seems someone that is down to earth and that I could feel comfortable with- for the most part. I usually don't talk about my meet in person Captain America's online or in my blogs too much. Not unless something feels necessary or vital. Right now, I have to admit I'm some kind of player, but I'm not out to play too many mind games or bring about too much confusion or mental terror. I don't know the what of the mental terror that some people may never leave me alone with anymore, but I know there have always been endless mind games and some mental/psychological terror out there. I just won't let myself be labeled with that.