The world was always too corrupt

My ears are being made to burn again today. I can tell I'm being talked about in several different ways, and I'm not surprised with the way my name is being trashed. The thought of the victimization games and violence begets violence with judgement makes me cringe more. It is typical though. While I have always looked into the dark unknown and unknown social circles and societies, I still see myself above the rules and laws in so many different ways. Words cannot describe just how far some corruption, lies, and cheap inferior judgement goes with some people. I've never stopped screaming at some of the bondages some people expect me to be in. Periods of living in terror to several different extents over corruption come and go. I can tell that some real life cops want to look at me and I am once again the victim of poor judgement and arbitrage corruption. It is always going to be the most seriously disorganized situation with some cops, and social circles of people..... When dealing with corruption, there have always been too many unstable fragments to be forced to be scatter brained and in question with. It is what I know I can't see; I know something comes from somewhere, but where, and what are some people entirely talking about? In my sickest hates and death threats I feel there are military men and people from atk that I've never met that are the most responsible for the most crippling and defenseless sexual assaults and harassments being made in the sickest most severe ways. When I believe such a sick sexual assault comes from such a source, there isn't much in the world to trust or have some kind of security or protection in. I'm a victim who has suffered a serious crime where there should be no excuse or justification. I don't trust the right information is always networked in the right or truthful ways from source to source in social groups and random groups of authority. I have a permanent anger to live with in knowing the gang rape I've already experienced. I know some would expect me to commit suicide, but they can only murder me for thinking they are right in keeping me in terror, harassed, and sexually assaulted. Yes, I will live in my anguished resilience, to see more days, to talk about that and the ways I know I have much more of a life than that. Yes, there are certain people, rules, and laws that I will always see myself as being above. I know the most chauvinistic will always be in the most jealousy and rage with who was I ever to not be beat in submission in certain ways? Who was I ever to stay too confident or confident at all? I march on. The world has always been too corrupt; I already feel this conversation is it's own pointless talk because when some people don't want to understand their levels of corruption or wrongs, it's nothing but yelling at each other back and forth. While there are always consequences and periods of violence begets violence, I'd rather succumb to my fear of being called a coward or willing inferior. While too many people have never known how to take me in too many ways, I can't stand being misjudged and cheaply judged in such sick minded and hateful ways. I don't always respond to the world's sadisms and hate, but however I'm being stared at now is pretty loud.