Did I get what I wanted?

.........I think if there is one strong mean jab I feel, it is: "be careful what you wish for." ..... I do feel pretty punched though. I'm upset at the couple of serious violent attacks there were. You say: "you made me mad." Suppose it was all just your anger. ..Did I push your limits too much? Is it more of your ego, or do you have an emotional care for me? Are you loyal for another? Is it normal for you to act like that when you're mad or did I really push your limits beyond your comprehension? I'm still in some shock and I don't know what to say. If there is something other than one main obvious thing you want, what is it you want from me or are expecting? I know my innocence with something, and your manipulative blackmail doesn't have me beat. You did Stockholm me right to my face and you looked like both Jack and David and who I would presume was the "bad cop." You look a lot like Zack too. I'm not sure who I'm talking to anymore. It seems a combination of you and Zack but someone IS playing tricks with my mind and I know I'm being watched by someone that I know I'm too blind-sided for. Don't overestimate how much I do know you. I don't know what you want. Please don't be violent anymore with me. mercy