But But But: Cut off

what pft huh Ok, I'm smacked around and just need to shut the fuck up. Oh David, you're forcing me to have some kind of hope in you. After watching some of Californication and having an idea to your real life, life history, it is hard to believe that you would have such a serious lust for me. I really could take it as a major compliment, but it isn't that I'm flattering your Californication lifestyle or your bisexual lifestyle either. I'm still afraid to know some things. Maybe you have a seriously good guy in you that you really want to prove, but I brace myself when it comes to discovering you more and the questionable number of people you have recent cheats with. There is a lot of things that don't make a lot of sense to me, and I feel like we're strangers in a lot of ways, but I have no other choice than to mostly just shut up. Do I want to ruin our time in the clouds with more questions about the reality of Californication, my skepticism, or reminders of cheats? Oh David, what even to believe about half of the arbitrage I see of yours and the ways that it doesn't always add up or make sense? While I look at you as the mean, hateful, and predatory fascist, its like you want to scream for your innocence with "Hang on Sloopy." What to really believe about that one? While it is a good sign of a song in some ways, the last time I heard it was from Rahm, who is a man that I know is more gay than straight, and a mean womanizer as well. I have to choose to not put too much bias to the song after it came from Rahm the first time..... I'll just have to be your doll baby for now David. I'm going to have to have some kind of hope and faith in you and it hurts to be forced to make that choice with likely odds that you would let me down again. The thought of being set up for another heartbreak can be terrifying. I'll have to be interrupted and stay your baby doll until you find a way to connect to me and make me believe more about you, where you came from, and what your objectives are.

As the Sarah Turns: On being Dickwhipped

David, "Georgia on my mind," was a friendly and romantic gesture. (Then there's another philanderer, Ray Charles)... What a quick and big win you give yourself with this one: http://www.msn.com/en-us/lifestyle/family-relationships/10-things-that-actually-turn-men-off/ss-BBslxbg ..... Maybe you could be pussy whipped for me in the most backwards way and wouldn't it be funny of me to take it too far as if it was you being more pussy whipped where you don't mean to insult me in another kind of way. haha. While I'm more focused on my own main focus of drama, I'll finish this trail off... Maybe dressing up and putting a lot of makeup on is too much for you. Maybe you like just the polished look and just that. lol. My work clothes must really do it for you. lol. What I wear to my other job is what I wear to my other job and I usually do wear the extra makeup for my own stripper sake. I like to look and feel like the stripper I am while being a stripper. I guess it could be a relief to you in some ways where you wouldn't have to be jealous or worry too much over other men. As for the other demands, I'm not going to remember them all. When I yell and throw my fits; I just do. And, usually when I yell and throw my fits, I'm not caring too much in being a turn off to you. When I can't win the way I want to win, I would mean to run you off. And Speaking of my focused drama........... "Georgia," was a nice gesture David, but it's not enough to make me your fool. I am your submissive and in being submissive, the dickwhipped expectations of love are not always the same or synonymous in being submissive. I'm still pretty angry, and you know what I really think during the times I give into you in masterbating when I'm not just in a submissive time but a violently care free time? 'I know I'm not winning. Tomorrow or the next 5 minutes, he's going to be playing, mind fucking, or actually fucking another woman. I am another used victim. A monogamous relationship is on my mind, and I am not ever going to be convinced of monogamy. I'm not over your terrible and sexually harassing foul mouthed comments. I'm not over your other love affairs. Your bad boy impression is still there and you are not the type of man whose love or relationship I could ever take seriously. I'm another pawn or playmate. I'm still here though in some way because I really can't take or stand your abuse and violence. If I were to cheat on you; I'd see it as dangerous and I'd only have a cheapshot of running away from you when going out and picking some random dude. I don't have enough jet power. I may eventually give into getting some anger out of my system if I CAN'T TAKE MY OWN RED anymore. And then, I'll just have to take another beating. I think my biggest and BEST rip on you yet is that YOU ARE THE REASON TO YOUR PROBLEM AND DRUG PROBLEM. Yay for me for making serious effort in wanting to be little miss perfect and little miss poster child BECAUSE I DON'T LIKE TO FUCK UP OR BE A FUCK UP. Yay my Canadian. I like myself AND IT IS YOUR PROBLEM IF YOU DON'T WANT TO ACCEPT ME OR MY BODY FOR WHO I AM. YOU ASSHOLE. You do seem to be a pretty serious fascist and are associated with rapacious fascist men: Jim and Jon especially. Jet power for little miss perfect. until then, I really don't know what.

WHATEVER YOU WERE EVER TRYING TO PROVE

hmmmm. I don't know who your other mystery fucked bitch too is, and I'm not surprised at this point. You've already been past the red in keeping me pissed off and past the red of being a cheater and a pig. You're definitely a dumb soap (I don't know why you were never hired for the dumb drama) who's drama keeps me mostly in the red. It just isn't fair WHEN YOU'RE THE ONE WHO GETS VIOLENT ON ME AFTER BEING SUCH A PIG. There are 3 guesses now: Express model, Erin Andrews, or Erin Wyer. Awe, you got another woman to cry over you. While I have nothing on the Express model AND SERIOUSLY DON'T CARE TO MAKE A BISEXUAL AFFAIR OF IT, I WILL KEEP YOU STARED AT IN A DEADLY WAY WITH EITHER ANDREWS OR WYER WITH MY DJANGO EYES. I DARE YOU TO KEEP STOCKHOLMING ME WHILE HAVING EITHER OF THOSE AROUND. It wasn't ok with any of your other women either. You've been in trouble with me and you only keep getting into it deeper. Maybe this is the opportunity FOR YOU TO GET OVER ME ONCE AND FOR ALL AND COMPLETELY FUCK OFF WITH YOUR GANG RAPISTS AND GANG RAPE. Erin is just as bad as Stacy and Bree Ann AND I HOPE ERIN DOES GET FORCED TO SUCK IT IN THE WORST WAY TO MY FACE TO YOUR FACE TOO WITH WHATEVER THE FUCK RIGHTS ANY OF THEM EVER THOUGHT THEY HAD TO BEGIN WITH. You are a DUMB MAN DAVID. WHATEVER YOU WERE EVER TRYING TO PROVE.