Is this a clumsy scene?

I remember the local farmer man character and the nightmare that I had that I still don't know how to explain. I cried, we kind of fell for each other and then everything disappeared. He looked like he was into someone else and left a bad and abandoned impression on me really. I guess with you David, I feel frustrated with the arbitrage and credibility issue. Do you give yourself the full credit of the farmer man? Or, are you wanting to pimp me back into the farmer man? Even when it comes to the wealthy, I can't stand the way they want to give themselves any or whatever name they want when they want. When I don't see the story or the story in you, I just don't. I DON'T WANT TO SEE IT IN YOU. If it was, you're just another man on the list who has betrayed me too and cheaply wants to get me back. You're the one who is fucking it up for yourself now. I wasn't out to break your heart with Steve or even with Trevor. If we already have some kind of story, you're going to have to accept that it was done behind my back and I really don't know what was said or what went on with you. The lists of "personal stories" THAT NEVER WERE because people talk way too much and too unfairly and give themselves their own bullshit credit. There is fun and games and playing, and then THERE IS BEING A SERIOUSLY CORRUPT AND UNFAIR PIG. What murderous intent do you have to say to my face? Were you out to make the biggest lesbian out of me because I wasn't ever going to cave into chauvinism and suck it? Are you out to rip on my body or keep me sexually threatened? What betrayer are you and just how easy do you think I am? This is what you get for making me wonder the way you make me wonder.