Summertime Heat

I remember the first name of the heart Dr. but not the last. While some could know or find out who he is, I need to think of a nickname anyway. ... I'll call him Dr. M for now I suppose. I have only seen him one time. If I ran into him in public, I might not recognize him. It is the next major thought I'm pondering: am I actually going to ever see him in person again? Usually when a guy breaks into my head, it is just a Stockholm all talk kind of thing. Sometimes a seemingly chastised arranged marriage or relationship. How can some people sometimes expect to keep the other person hooked? Anyway, I don't think he is thinking along the lines of chastity. Although he could have a major share with Barilla, he keeps me guessing with who he could really be. My best guess right now is that other men have noticed he is into me, and either want to embarrass him or put him under another kind of different pressure. I know it is Dr. M I am looking at and giving the credit to. While he could have a very open sexuality, I know I don't know what he is real life style choices are. In some ways he seems like he is really moving in on me, and I feel weak and imprisoned to him. I am very seduced and if he wanted to have me he could. I know he has a meanness that I don't completely understand. I haven't completely caught onto him yet. I'm available, but I don't know entirely what to make of him or how long I will stay hooked. I'm not the stalking type and if he wanted to meet me, he would have to come find me or try to connect to meet me.