Random Thoughts

Busy Busy Busy. and too much rain. I'm so upset at how much it has been raining. Even on the 4th it will be raining. I know summer is not over, but is seems like it has rained and will rain in a one month total of time. No swimming, playground or other random outdoorsy stuff. Too much cabin fever for Mitzi and I. Today may be a day of no rain. ...... Not too much talk about drama for now. I have been trying out a website to make more money off of stripping and ran into another first with something. I had a little bit of a difficult time in reacting to it, but then when I was made to guess at someone, I became so upset. I'm still not 100% sure who I got flashed with. It was all fun and games until someone wanted to be serious about putting a name to a mystery person's faceless face. I don't care, I'm going to keep using the website anyway. .... Last night was a different night with my usual job. We all went to another strip club where a huge party was being thrown. Some girls from DC came in. They had an interesting show. Last summer our club usually had one feature per month and this is the first time in a long time that a club brought a feature in. I like being around a club when it is busy. ....... Other than that, there is not a whole lot going on.

Summertime Heat

I remember the first name of the heart Dr. but not the last. While some could know or find out who he is, I need to think of a nickname anyway. ... I'll call him Dr. M for now I suppose. I have only seen him one time. If I ran into him in public, I might not recognize him. It is the next major thought I'm pondering: am I actually going to ever see him in person again? Usually when a guy breaks into my head, it is just a Stockholm all talk kind of thing. Sometimes a seemingly chastised arranged marriage or relationship. How can some people sometimes expect to keep the other person hooked? Anyway, I don't think he is thinking along the lines of chastity. Although he could have a major share with Barilla, he keeps me guessing with who he could really be. My best guess right now is that other men have noticed he is into me, and either want to embarrass him or put him under another kind of different pressure. I know it is Dr. M I am looking at and giving the credit to. While he could have a very open sexuality, I know I don't know what he is real life style choices are. In some ways he seems like he is really moving in on me, and I feel weak and imprisoned to him. I am very seduced and if he wanted to have me he could. I know he has a meanness that I don't completely understand. I haven't completely caught onto him yet. I'm available, but I don't know entirely what to make of him or how long I will stay hooked. I'm not the stalking type and if he wanted to meet me, he would have to come find me or try to connect to meet me.