Diary of a Stripper part 3

Presently, it is still up in the air as to whether or not I want to make a regular job out of being a stripper. I definitely put myself on the schedule for 2 more days this week. After that, I still haven't decided what I'm going to do......... So far, the few days I have stripped have, in literal business terms, been uneventful. The other upcoming day I will be working on is Friday where one of the more famous strippers are coming in. This will be another new interesting thing to find out about. I have been working on my skills a little more. I can do a few more things on the pole, but still have yet to muscle up and perfect the art of it a little more. .......... I could talk a little more, but for now, I feel there really is nothing to bring up. I still have the Depeche Mode song on my mind that I will eventually dance to. (There are 2, but there is one I have been wanting to do more). I was going to save it for a bigger crowd (and still can, but it won't be the official first time to dance) but because I kind of had to wait, I'm just going to get it out of my system anyway. Forget the DJ, forget the crowd, I'm just going to do it soon, and I know I'll be dancing to it again anyway. ............... I am taking note of several different men and some of them being gropers or potential gropers. (can't get close enough ) Well, at least it is men this time and ones that I have to admit are attractive. Although I'm being somewhat responsive, that is the only real response I am giving. I'm not saying a word about the way I'm being groped by a few. ....... Word on other men? Because I can be seen as more whorish and "bottomed out," there is more ease in talking about several different men at once. And, I'm not going to be talking about each and every.... Rob Thomas is making me a little angry with games of confusion. He could be 3 different people I could be talking to and they are all not the same. Most of his senators do hide a lot of information and I would especially be upset if he was the farmer man who would be immaturely persistent with his original nigger argument from the start. It isn't just about questioning (vehemently angry that it wasn't even a question) it was that he was wanting to make me the butt end or put the other first. Although I have some personal emotions that I keep to myself and other feelings for the farmer man, he still hasn't won overall. Is he seriously going Kurt Cobain on me, or is being an ass and harasser his mission in life? Yes, you do make me question you more Farmer man, whether you're more than just an ass or harasser. Yes, you do make me question your intents farmer man. (In looking after my own reputation, I don't believe farmer man could be responsible for what someone is saying his "Affluenza" is responsible for. I believe it should probably be decoded differently. He wants to put a man in his trap with me as bait because maybe he caught someone cheating through me. If it is supposed to be on me, he is purposefully making me question and second guess him more. What does farmer man expect when he wants to keep me guessing too much? Farmer, do you just want me to be your clichéd victim in accords with your affluenza with: "Farmer man, if you had all of that money and you loved me, than you would just be pouring $100 bills on the stage and stuffing my panties and bra with them before and after the dress. Don't you love me farmer man? What can I do to get you to love me or make you love me more farmer man? What can I do to make you love me more?" wink wink ;0) Other men,...... I think some are being a little too assumptive. I can't deny my lust or emotions, but am still staying cancer preventive. I know, I know, what an even more vulnerable piece of meat that I am. It is because of them all, that it doesn't matter where I go or what I do... I just know I'm not necessarily....just not necessarily......JUST NOT NECESSARILY... I know what I'm trying to say but my mind is drawing a blank with how I want to say it. AND DON'T ANY OF YOU DARE THINK ABOUT TESTING ME WITH DRUGS. YES, I WOULD RATHER BE A STRIPPER THAN BE ON ANY DRUGS. AND DON'T YOU DARE THINK THAT "THE MORE I 'PICK MY POISON' THE FARTHER I'D GO WITH ANYTHING AND EVERYTHING." I know, I know, what a more vulnerable piece of meat I am. Just don't assume too much.