Random Thoughts

Another festival coming up this weekend. Note to self to facebook invite it. I'm upset to have to miss out on the Great Allegany Race Saturday. I was just going to do a 5k, but it is the same day as my festival. So, just have to wait until next year for the marathons. I'm definitely planning on being more ready then and probably going to get a gym membership pretty soon. So much to do so little time...... Priorities, priorities...... I'm getting excited for Christmas. While I'm still considered poor, I will have enough to get Mitzi some presents and already have some planned in my head. Another thing I'm excited with is that Mitzi and I are getting pictures in a few weeks. I already have 2 outfits in mind for her to wear and one dress in mind for me, but am not completely ready.
Back to the festival. I wish I had the time to make more, but feel I have made a significant amount of stuff going from one festival into the next. I wish I had the time to make more cowels and more button bags of varying colors. There were other things I had wanted to make that I am in the process of making but just not enough time. Maybe by the time the bazaar gets here, I will have been able to make a few more cowels and button bags. The rest of luck will be for etsy and ebay and maybe a few flea markets. I still have loads of books and pillows to get rid of. Next year, I'll have that and baby clothes to sell if I havn't already found a job. I'll still probably do that or a yard sale anyway........
Not a lot to say about the media. Arbitrage was not in the local theatres, so I will just have to wait for it to come out on Netflix. I know my thoughts were directed at Jon and will simply make myself a little more clear on this blog. So many things to feel buried alive over..............
Not a lot of jobs in the paper this week. I'll have to check online and have one idea to finish. November will be the month I will probably have more of a day to day effort. I have thought about applying for a state job, but with how things have gone, I have had my doubts. If I ever did save enough money, I would wait for a social work job outside of Cumberland, and if I had even more money saved, probably one outside of Maryland. 50 states to choose from. I don't know how they are about living in the state though. I don't know. Still open to a lot of ideas but actually finding a job is a whole other story.

Random thoughts

Preparation, preparation. Spending some time, but not enough time to spend to be at the organized level I would want to be. With common sense and practicality, it would be better to spend more time in making crafts than having a highly organized inventory. I do give myself credit for organizing this year's inventory though. I wish I had had time to make more of certain crafts. There was a particular hat last year that sold well, and for this particular festival, I do not have a large amount of them to sell. The ones at the shop had already sold it seems as well as some baby hats. So it is good news and bad news with the number of particular products I will have. I only had the time to make 2 pairs of baby ugg boots as well. The next two festivals, I should have time to make a decent amount of more products that have already sold well. Some new hats this year, that I hope do sell well. I am assuming that some of my beret hats have already sold at the MC store because they were not there when I had went to pick up my stuff. My gourds will be there, so I am eager to see how they will sell. Some of them are hanging pots, so during the season, I don't know if the hanging pots will sell. They were meant for the springtime. Whatever season, a sale is a sale so it really doesn't matter too much.
I am happy to see that the weather forecast has changed. Even then, a forecast is only a forecast. Hopefully, the day of will be sunny as predicted.
Other random thoughts...... I've seen BS before about employment. Sometimes I will read, most times I won't. It is nice to see some thumbs up and encouragement, but the fact of employment is the proof is still in the pudding: I will have a job when I have a job. I really don't think too much of times when I get led on with getting a job. Besides so many other lies, it is more cruelty to falsely make me believe something is coming for me when it really isn't.
that's all for now.

Dear Lance

Hey Lance, I'm surprised to see you're still giving me a thumbs up. ha. or are you? Don't take my Adam Lambert or "cross-dressing" too seriously. I simply have my own sense of humor. Maybe you are being bisexual or gay, or maybe I'm just too overassumptive....... If you wanted to be any kind of emotional support; you really aren't winning at whatever you're trying to achieve. You most likely must need a lot of emotional support right now and it's just awful we both need a lot of emotional support at the same time. This isn't me asking to get some bitch's breasts shoved in my face either.
I just may go running today but I don't know with how much time I have. It has been awhile since I've ridden my bike. I don't know how you want to feel some emotional support. With the distance and all, there really can't be a lot of strong feelings of significance but ~I'm with you in spirit with whatever is going in on in your arbitrage and whoever my supposed senator is. ????..........???? um yeah........
If you are being a sincere cockblocker, I appreciate it. While it seems a lot remains unresolved with Jon, he is mostly in the same pattern in his abusive cycles. He wants to tell me how to live and expect me to still live and be around him with how he chooses to live. He has expected me to be subjected to his numbers of women numbers of times. That is one of his most inhumane expectations, but he has other ways of being abusive. I don't know what you hear; how you roll; or who your friends are, but presently, Kim K and I are not friends whatsoever. e-n-e-m-i-e-s. This isn't any kind of lesbian victimization game; this is serious shit coming from both Jon and Kim.
I've blogged before on some of my ideals and the games people play and leading people on. It is like people and even specifically Jon purposefully bullshit and make stories just to be cruel on purpose. I don't get all his games; why he keeps playing them; why he has been so cruel and led me on for a long time. Just don't get it.........
Wouldn't mind a distraction though if you are seriously trying to be one........... It would be cool to meet you in person; I wouldn't mind if you tried a little harder.