Freedom at 21: Revenge and Venting

I really want to smack Larry upside the head for the way he reacted to me and acted like such an innocent virgin about me asking about him cheating. Larry, forget we met at the strip club, forget the name I had of Pamela after Pamela Anderson, forget that there are married men and coupled men who came into the club all of the time and cheated. Let alone I have seem to have no history, like I've never been violently cheated on to my face several times by several different men. Like cheating has never happened with anyone. While I don't feel cut too deeply by Larry, I still feel cut on and threatened. His virginal responses make me feel like I should believe he is cheating that much more. Yeah right we didn't meet at the strip club Larry. It is like he could have been caught off guard or felt so unexpectedly questioned that he didn't know what to say in the worst way. He was insulted and hit me back with his verbal warfare and cuts. He might as well have just told me he's cheated rather than be such a mean coward. If he is seriously that innocent, he should have never judged me and never made me feel so threatened about my will to care about my respect. I was dumped over his own dating rules. When he chose his rules, he chose his rules, and I told him to just call me "psycho," and that I know I can't win. While I lose him; I won't lose to his rules which become other rules of my own where I can only continue to lose him with the back to back. I told him that if he cared about me enough, his rules wouldn't stand in his way so much and he would have never treated me as being too ridiculous and that was so pathetic of me. Whether or not he was caught off guard with whatever cause to his horrible responses, he lost me with the way he chose to judge and demean me and made me question my ability to trust him that much more. I'm still upset. I'm still not completely over him, but how he handled it himself helped me get over him a little more. ....................... Freedom in the 21st Century