Until Then

Right now, I am coming to some of my senses with my job situation. I have decided my night job is no longer going to be working out. Had I not had to worry about the house fees; I'd probably not worry about it. When babysitting and house fees add up, my breaking even is 80.00, no discretion. Whatever I make after my first 80.00 is what I am really making unless my daughter is at her grandparents where the visits won't be as often much longer. My mother will be finally moving with my dad 6 hours away to VA. So, as far as that goes, my break even will always be at 80.00. Some nights, I make less than that. I am happening to be in a dry spell right now, but most times I do decently. Sadly, this job is no longer a job that pays off. I'm sure I'll find another job where just the babysitting 40.00 break even with the rest I make won't be as bad. I'm sad about it. Until I can find another job, I'm logging back in to flirt for free and will try my luck there. This is a painful wall to hit, but I'll get over it. I'm thinking about Uber delivery, but I already drive enough during my day job. It will be a challenge to find a job where I can get a flexible enough schedule...... I have to keep running. This move to Pittsburgh has been so stressful and there are times where I am so extremely stressed with no time at all that I just want to scream and scream and scream. I have to do what I have to do. I don't know how much longer I will be a dancer for, but my shoes will be hung up back in my closet before too long. Until I find another job, I've got to keep hanging in there..............