So frustrated

Looks like you are going gay on me and what does it matter any more anyway? I'm not ever going to give you the benefit of the doubt again. If you're not a wolf in sheep's clothing one way, you are in another. You have a lot of mixed signals from either being too dense or intentionally sadistic. I'm not ever going to get my hopes up for you again or believe you would ever seriously want me again. You really didn't come off as bad as Jon and I did have a difficult time to comparing you as the same. I know you both wish the day would come where I would feel my violence, anger, and hate was ridiculous. THAT DAY WILL NEVER COME. Besides the way you drive me away, you drive me away that much harder the more you try to change my emotions. Maybe it is out of revenge because I am out to make some ridiculous tyrants feel like the ridiculous tyrants they are, or maybe you guys are just being a shameless pig for me being daring to reject your values or people of value you have. I have serious enemies and also hate the open relationship lifestyle. YES IT IS CHILDISH FOR YOU TO KEEP IGNORING ME IN THE WORST WAY AND CONTINUING TO TEST OR THREATEN ME WITH MORE BETRAYAL THE WAY YOU DO. A bias where the flame is being further fed: the wealthier the man, the more apt they are to have that dense of a vanity. A denial of WTF tyranny or How the fuck could you deny and refuse to embrace my tyranny? Vain dense men. SO DENSE. So controlling and sadistic and it isn't always easy in trying to figure a man out in either a general or emotional sense............. The emotional and social relief that I never had... I can never get what I want in the worst way. I'm either too lied about or too hated and tormented. It looks like it could have been Tom Cruise who had the Tom Foolery on ebay. Still, it doesn't change the fact of your cheats and tests with other women. I hate Tom's mean stalker. It was the fact that I had to raise my voice that violently with Medvedev and using him as my own further proof, that I'll never want Tom again. I'll never want any man that wants me to get a boob job or makes me scream like that. While you seem to have took it back some; I'm not convinced that you take it back much; and the rest of our story is still in too much of a disaster. You want to kiss my neck and not slit it. I'm too smart to take you in the worst way as if you want to commit suicide because of my will to murder you. I don't want to be forced to fight like that to be loved and accepted; I just want to be loved and accepted. I'm not sure what all of the freakish visuals on msn were trying to say today. I don't always understand signs or what the signs are trying to say. I need more of a breast reduction for man boobs? I need implants? The obsession over my breasts was so long ago and people still sickly obsess over them to this day. Dense pigs........ David, I'm not going to have any more hopes in you. If I did have hope and we had a normal relationship; I honestly think finding out anymore about you will do me more harm than good. I think if we had a future, it would be dark and miserable. I don't want to know any more about you and I don't want to be stuck with you or forced to settle with you.