Thinking of you

I feel so trapped I could cry. Maybe you want to keep me guessing if you were out to get me. If I get led on by a number of famous people why not be led on by you? Why not hop back on the horse and believe that someone like you would be serious about me and serious about being in a relationship? Unless you had an instant way to put me out of my misery, I guess I could let myself try to have my own way of sticking with you. Sometimes, it really feels good to have someone to love and in this case I'm stunned at just how ideal of a man to love you are.... I've had my fits, embarrassments, and made some enemies. Did you love me from the start? If so, do you feel you have an evolution of feelings? Would I ever actually fit in with you and your fellow minions? Your literal class of wealth? How much do I belong? ............ I'm not always the best in the arbitrage, mine or others radar, and believing when something is real when my mind is messed with or ppl get in my head. If you are in my head, I'm shy to say or ask if what I think I'm seeing or feeling is real? I could really see myself making passionate love to you. The arbitrage.. A mind game where we are married divorced and I'm both the divorcee and the mistress. (Ben, Jennifer, and Jennifer)I don't like my head being messed with too much. I don't always know who likes to mess with my head either. Media games, eh oy ick; very questionable and unbelievable. .... I did watch "Minions," today with Mitzi. We had a good time. It was cute and funny. I havn't seen Despicable Me 2 yet and will have to add that to my queue. Were you really hiding in plain sight? Is this the first time I am a fool to this trick that I've never been so fooled with? I know Shawn isn't the real character you are. Are you really out to get me?...... I remember my past manager and I seriously don't think you are being evil with giving him your credit. I remember some said things and that there was a serious way he was chasing me. I know I have him rejected (it could still be possible he was speaking for someone else and he wasn't being serious about giving me the credit), but I'm not sold into believing you seriously are being that serious with me. I will say that I feel led on, and I'm not sure what it is you really want. You're the center of attention of my radar now....