"Snookie Talk"

Don't know how much of a speak of the devil by speaking to the devil this is with you about Jon. I do believe that Jon is the bigger devil. There is just no breaking through to Jon. He was an extremely vain and prejudiced man where I was at the butt end of everything often. I don't care that I could be betraying his trust. He deserves hell and that much more and I know most of my gossip isn't anywhere near hell or comparable to his hell. .... I saw another sign last night that either Chance wants to reach me through you as a symbol, or someone is telling me you are a lot like Chance. Chance is a pretty unfair guy. While I could say I don't know him, I think I instinctively do. He is VERY chauvinistic, prejudiced, and biased. He is very subjective and thinks there is nothing wrong with it. He is set in his bias and prejudice where his victim is expected to beg or fight for his respect, AKA "sucking it." The reason that I was fired out of a lot of jobs and have the job I have now is because of men and people like him. You made a good impression on me in "Your Highness." I don't like that I have to question you as "Chance." .... I think Jon is nothing but a continued repetitive conquestial act. He can't break himself. There is no breaking through to his mind. A lot of times, I don't like to feel controlled or paranoid by his structure if I sleep with whatever guy I feel like sleeping with. He has so many fallacies and judgment as to what the sex means and makes up his own bullshit of what the "giving yourself up," is. He has a fucked up mind that never ceases to make a person feel harassed or paranoid. I've been lied about with Jon and his other desperately retarded judgmental bitches too much. He tried to own me too much in so many other ways too. He will never comprehend how much he has broken my heart in his sense of hierarchy and subjective slave labor. He has never changed. There is no breaking through to his dominant, one-sided, slave laboring mind. He is nothing but a terrorizing pig. He does have OCD in domination games and who gets the credit for what. He lets a lot of egocentric crackheads win. There is no such thing as doing something out of your own free will and someone else is always the "queen" "king" or "leader." There is someone he always sets to subject you to because GOD FORBID IN THE WORST TOTALITARIAN WAY THAT ANYONE LIVE IN THEIR OWN LIBERTY AND FREEDOM. I really do think Jon Stewart specifically (and in this entire writing) is jealous of me for the extremely mean way he has always been demeaning and controlling to me. He has such a violent prejudice and has never stopped bullying me or challenging me to his self or someone else. Although I'm not a serious narc, Jon will be the reason that I look like the biggest narcissist of anyone. There is no breaking through to him and his rapist rudeness. He has always been subjective like this. He has never stopped threatening me, trying to change or control me. He is the reason that he has always been the hated man that he is of mine. He is my rapist trash heap nigger.