Colin

Hey hot stuff! Right now I'm a little more down compared to other days, and not all of my negative emotions are meant for you to take personally that I know of. I've been stressed for awhile, and my stress levels are high. Sometimes, I feel like I could just die. I've always had too many creepers, terrorists, and haters to deal with. I missed a typical weeks pay because of the crazy work situation. I have an expensive car repair that is already overdue and yet to be done. My daughter has a birthday coming up, plus there is Easter. Most importantly, is her and I getting out of this house and having a place of our own. That is the biggest burning stressor. I don't even know where I want to go. Is it really worth it to me to move to Morgantown when I don't even know how long I'll be stripping for? I could do it for another year or a little more, but I never planned for Morgantown to be our long-term destination. Cumberland definitely isn't either. It is hard to plan on a move, where the rest of everything else is up in the air. Taking a vacation this summer with Mitzi is really important to me too. Life is tough and although there is a future to try to be hopeful for, I just feel like I could die sometimes.............. You are burning to know about how much of an "old fart," I think you are. haha. No. You know you know you are attractive. By the time you reach 70, you'll probably be the one who wants to go for an even younger woman than me. I'll be 50, and you'll want another 30 or even 20 year old. With your wealth and life savings, you'll be able to afford a prostitute if you can't find someone else. And me? That will be the time I'll just let you dump me and I'll either be a cougar, find someone else my age, or if there is another attractive old fart who wants a younger older, I may go for him. lol. Personally, I don't think it would be too bad to be stuck with an older man compared to being a single mom. It isn't always easy being a single mom. I guess it depends on how controlling of a person you are. I'd hope you wouldn't have a grandpa approach and keep her spoiled too much.(no further comment on my present life's reality). Although my independent lifestyle isn't the best, I'd want her to have and survive one on her own. That is a rough draft of what I think about the whole age issue with you and I. ........ Don't be too hard on yourself and your age. I think I could need you. Have a good day Colin. xo

Cabin Fever

Besides all of my problems and troubles staying the same, this week has been a rough week. My workplace has been closed down due to a water pipe break. While I enjoy some of the time off, it is too much time off, and I hate the pressure of being broke. It sets my plans back even further. I drove the distance last night to check out other clubs and see what they are like but they were closed because of the weather. Even if the pipe was fixed today at my regular club, I wouldn't be able to make it today because of the weather. I've been pretty bummed about the whole thing. The best thing about it is, is spending time with Mitzi. I hate that I can't seem to get out though. It is starting to drive me insane. I'm hoping to be back to work on Friday.