Burning to Make You Go Away

I'm pretty serious about mocking your attempts to make me jealous and making you understand how much of a sore loser you are. You really should have given up on wanting me to befriend or be a lesbian for Erin, Stacy, or Bree Ann a long time ago. You are so violently low along with them I have no fear of making you all know I will live for the day they get raped and forced to suck it and choke hard to my face. I hate how violently in denial you are. You guys are the most emotionally retarded arrogant people I have ever come across. Fuck any and every nerve you have left in you. How could you not realize the way you have lived to harass torment and stalk me? How on earth could you ever feel you are anywhere near being envy worthy with the violent rapists you have been. Just personally with you Jon, you know I never realized how lied to, deceived, and tricked I was until I did. I have never felt so lied to, betrayed, and wrongfully controlled and beat by totalitarianism in all my life. How could you not see just how guilty of a person you are? You have already felt worthy of your murderous rape to my face in the worst way. HOW DARE YOU EXPECT ANYTHING OF ME. You are the most violently emotional fucktard of a manpig I have ever known. I can't get over your nerve and thinking that I would ever side with you and your fellow rapist women. HOW COULD YOU EVER EXPECT ME TO GET OVER THE SERIOUS RAPE, SEXUAL ABUSE AND HARASSMENT, STALKING, AND FURTHER EXPRESSED DOMINANCE OVER MY LIFE AND THINKING THAT THEY HAVE EVER HAD ME OWNED. THEY ARE MY ENEMIES FOR LIFE. THEY ARE THE RAPIST SCUM WHO WILL ALWAYS BE MY INFERIOR NO MATTER HOW MUCH RAPE AND DOMINANCE THEY GET AWAY WITH FOR LIFE. I WILL NEVER FORGIVE YOU OVER ALL OF THE LIES AND GOSSIP AND FURTHER NERVE TO QUESTION, TEST, OR SUBJECT ME TO THEIR OR YOUR OTHER RING DOGS DOMINANCE. HOW COULD YOU NOT SEE YOURSELF FOR THE TYRANT RAPIST CALVIN NIGGER? HOW THE FUCK COULD YOU NOT SEE THAT IN YOURSELF? IF I HAVE TO KEEP RUBBING IN YOUR AND THEIR RAPE DAY AFTER DAY AND KEEP SWEARING AT YOU FOR THE INFERIOR I NEVER WAS OR WILL BE, I WILL. JUST BECAUSE THEY HAVE BIGGER BOOBS AND ARE BISEXUAL. YOU ARE ONE OF THE SICKEST PREJUDICED PIGS I HAVE EVER HAD TO PUT UP WITH IN MY LIFE. I WILL NEVER FORGIVE YOU OF YOUR PREJUDICE, ABUSE, AND SIDING WITH THEIR ARROGANCE AND SUBJECTIFICATION. I WANT YOU ALL RAPED IN THE WORST WAY TO MY FACE. YOU SHOULD HAVE LEFT ME ALONE A LONG TIME AGO. YOUR UNFORGIVEABLE ARROGANT WILL TO WANT ME TO CHANGE, BE ON YOUR AND THEIR SIDE, AND KEEP ME HARASSED, STALKED, RAPED, AND ABUSED WILL ALWAYS BE YOUR PROBLEM AND YOUR ACTIONS. YOU WILL NEVER BE ABLE TO PROVE YOUR SICK SENSE OF SUPREMACY. YOUR SORE LOSER WILL ALWAYS STICK OUT LIKE A SORE THUMB. YOU WILL ALWAYS BE THE MOST HEARTLESS, MANIACAL, PIG OF A MAN. I WILL NEVER FORGIVE YOU FOR HAVING NO CLUE OR UNDERSTANDING JUST HOW VIOLENTLY LOW YOU ARE.

Too Much Stress

While I am glad to have relieved myself from some stress this past year; I still have too much to stress over. I wish I had more time for my own stress relief therapy, but then that becomes another reason of stress for the time I could have spent in getting done other things that need to be done. .... Black Friday. I think I'm going to pass on that. I have had it in my mind to go shopping and shop like I shop any regular day I shop. However, it is the fact that I feel I have to delay my shopping or persuade myself into the Black Friday makes it more stressful. I had planned to go shopping this weekend, but my shopping was delayed again because I got sick and hit a few bumps in the road. Ugh and phew. I think I'm going to try to keep my mind set on shopping Tuesday and save the rest of the shopping online if I do shop it this weekend. Shoes. At times I feel I have enough, I realize I really don't have enough of something. I need more casual shoes and dress shoes. My black pumps are already worn out and besides wanting some regular dress casual pumps, I have also been looking at some adorable stripper pumps. I had my mind set on one pair of pumps, but then after taking another second look, they looked too punkish and hardcore gothic. It was complicating to look at, because they were laced with a bow, but the way they were designed and looked to fit just looked too punkish. There was another sating pair that I noticed where not only was it difficult to decide with the colors, but there was no link there when I clicked. Hopefully they will still be for sale through the 800 number. Then casual shoes... I need another regular pair of Mary Janes, some kind of winter shoe that isn't a boot, and a pair of casual sneakers that aren't really too tennis shoe looking and more casual looking............. So much other stress on my mind. So much to think about over the holidays. I haven't figured out anything definite yet, but may probably end up tagging along with my parents unless I find another restaurant for just Mitzi and I. I'm thinking about taking Mitzi to a cabin in Deep Creek to celebrate for Christmas but that is up in the air too. I don't even know which toys to get her yet. ........... As the Sarah Turns. I don't have much to say for now until I feel the need to. I am noticing some things and staying quiet for now. ...... Crafting stress. Although I never planned on doing anymore, I am going to make myself do one more show. I don't think I will have enough of an inventory, but I know I still have 2 tables and a rack of items to sell. Maybe some people won't notice how much I've sold or see it as picked over items. I still have plenty of cowells to sell that have yet to sell. There is so much to keep making that I don't know where to begin. I was thinking of trying my bags out again during spring and summer at festivals I havn't tried yet and getting fully stocked on those, but its another risk investment. I could spend more time making winter things. I just don't completely know what to do yet, but know I have plenty of things to do to keep busy as a crafter...... After the holidays will be where I will start thinking more of where to go from here. I have so much to think about to plan for and how I will work myself out over the next year and more. If I move, where will I move, and how will I make my game plan? Thoughts to postpone for now.