Dear Dr. MH

..........hmmmm....signs signs signs. Right now, I can only see the ones online. Good and bad. Dr., I'm sure you know about some of my nerve endings. I am very serious that when you go there with my finances, it really is a dangerous nerve ending to go for. You may as well ask a holocaust survivor, "why didn't you have any money?" It is one of the most dense questions you could ask me. I will never be at fault for employment history. I will never be at fault for lack of unemployment. I know some people will always be desperate to put things on me, and you abandoning my truth on this issue and writing me off to either say I am at fault, or am nuts in the head IS NOT WINNING. If you have motives to rape me over this, you will not win. Which leads me to your next testing question: Yes, I am attracted to the fact that you most likely have a lot of money. I'm not sure if you are really are retiring or not. I really could go on and on with rage of my victimized life being judged against. Because I've already talked about it to a paragraph's extent, this really is making me very angry. I have not and will not be conquested by anybody over this issue. I give myself a lot of credit for living and dying alone with myself through several years. I am proud of myself; don't second guess it. I will not back down. People act as if I would give up on myself. The more I'm left to be damned, the worse it gets and the angrier I become. Violence begets violence....... In other signs, you seem a little lighter. You want me to buy more booze so I will be easier to seduce? You do seem to continue to be seductive. If you keep trying to go for the financial thing; trying to hook up on me while I'm drunk and invested in booze will probably be the only luck you already give yourself. I guess it would also depend on your approach and how you act as well. I may be easier, but I'm not always willing even when I'm drunk. I do question you in other ways. You could be seeing me as Erin's Ron Burgundy. I hate your chauvinistic judgment of me being the chauvinistic one. This isn't the only time I've said it: I would rather you just admit you don't want me enough or like someone else more, than for you to ruin me with more lies and terrible judgment. I know my history. It would be very terrible if you were to keep giving Erin the upper hand. Not sure what you think of Bree Ann. But if you are trying to gang rape me for either of their sake; I think very low of you. This goes beyond female chauvinism. I will N-E-V-E-R see myself as their inferior in any way, shape, or form. I don't want to be battered anymore over Jon's arbitrage or your possible sexual pig violence that will never admit the gang rapist womanizer you are. I really could be wrong. Maybe you are not a pig like that and are more of a man. Some signs are making me second guess you. I'd rather you not waste any more of my time at all if you are setting out to be a gang rapist against me. If you really get to talk with the president too, tell him I give a terse "hello."