On to you

I know your leaving me guessing. I think I have a couple of other clues but I still don't know what to make of you. Speaking, I need to think of a name for you. Spike fits a little, but in present times, Spike doesn't entirely fit it. I will think of another name to give, but Spike will have to fit for now. Are you crashing into me Spike? It almost looks that way sometimes. Whether or not you see it as a crash, you look liked you've crashed into me a couple of times. I know looks can be deceiving, and you're still the one who knows what your motives/intentions/mission could be. I bet both of your kills so far has been crackhead kills. I'm still a little upset at both. Spare the rod or spoil the child? I can change my mind anytime I want but I'll mostly spare the rod for now, you dog. Besides the one I mentioned that you DID DENY TO MY FACE is another kill where I had nowhere to go. Speaking of handling things, you really weren't handling me well that day. What a mean frisk that was with my innocence. Maybe you have your own way of being a Faulker to cover up your truth, but you're a pretty mean Faulker. I don't know who gave you the power to do that but I was pretty upset about it. You really could be just another Chris Cornell #1 Zero on my list. I don't know if you would be the #1 zero, because I know I have a lot of zeros. There may be a day where I make my own asshole contest with who ranks in zeros. This is why you are impossible Spike. If you want me to talk, I don't have much to work with. I'm guessing that you're just being the vague riddler for now to see which direction I'll go. A little seduced, but not fooled. Am I carefree? Ahhhhaahahahaa........... While you are impossible, am I alone in being tormented by the handling games between us? I get some of the upperhand you could give yourself if I am seriously easy, yet there is still a difference between carefree and easy isn't there? I bet I could find another upperhand with you Faulker, besides just the name Faulker. What is it you are up to.?.?. Besides some handling past, what are you out to do? Something just fun and games, or do you have some sort of seriousness or trick up your sleeve? You leave me with no other choice but to be curious. I know you want me to want you...........

Dear Barilla

XOXOXOXOXO Barilla, you may or may not dislike the things that come along with capitalism. In my world, it looked like to me, there were two men that had a share with you. It seems as if they are still connected so, I have to have a couple of conversations going on at once.... I know I'm not a real hippie, but I know the casino man that I think about when I see your capitalism and symbolism...XOXOXOXOXO With Tom, it looks like he is rolling with being the old man and has his own backlash... With you, it is all in the sky...... I am still going to sign up to win for "30days of Joy," and despite some other signals, I will most likely try your recipes too. Speaking of recipes, I know how some men get their minds' in the gutter with "Mushrooms." Excuse me Mr. Barilla, but you can't take that step although you done did. I'm going to talk to Casino man first. Mr. Casino man, although you broke in my head in such a beautifully, mature, and understanding way (in the wrong place by the way where I almost cried) how could you switch up everything with the "forget what I said" immaturity. While your hook and bait was something unexpected, out of nowhere, and the real piece of heart you took, how could you just kerplunk and ruin it like that? What are you really trying to say to me here Mr. Casino Man? What is it you are getting at? Loving emotional men don't exist and neither does the snowflake theory and all men are going to just lie to degrade me in one way or another no matter what? YOU CAN'T BE A FROG! How could you even think I would think suicide knowing the way you broke in my head knowing the pride and self-worth that I had and have? How could you just do that to me? Maybe it is just the holidays getting to you and you are thinking like a jovial santa clause (I know you're lean) where it is nothing but a mere sexual joke (not a gigantic sick joke assault)? Maybe you took some of Tom's feedback food of the old man and have a share with Tom (I know you are old too) and what Tom's response looks like " ok ok ok I'm an old man, my time is ticking too, now let's just both DO and suck me." I really do hate how capitalism works because not all communication is the same. Casino man, I was still thinking along the lines of "Lady and the Tramp," and you knowing you want to be the chef and make the pasta while I get the dessert and wine. Or whatever your view of hippie sex was having some sort of picnic in a lovely little field. Or in the winter, a cozy cabin in the woods with a fireplace where I knit you a hat and scarf. Whatever happened to "That's amore" ? Whichever man, I know you're old. But, could you accept the fact that I really do think you are attractive and really do want a better approach and mucho swavay moves to happen. Lady and the Tramp. You're making me ask and you ruined it that much more.