Whew what a week. Things going on. I'm tired of getting sick. Sick on nothing but Thursdays..... Maybe it is just the seasons changing. Who knows.
I have a new job and it is definitely one of those jobs to tough out. Being a sales person is not a piece of cake. It is another thing that only time will tell......
Another busy time of year for me anyway. Busy and expensive. I can't believe Mitzi is turning 1. While there is celebration for her party; I have to ignore my depression and brink of despair for now. I've got most out of the way. I just need to prepare for her party.
Life has been so busy, I can't believe I have the time to sit down and write a blog. There's been times in my head where I could have plenty to talk about but just don't have a lot of chatter right now.
There is not a lot of drama. There is not a lot of a story. I still have a lot of anger for several different reasons. I wish there was more I could do for myself. I hate the way my life has been out of control and there have been times I have been intentionally reminded of my anger and just burn some more. Of course there are always the arrogant or egocentric people breathing down the back of my neck waiting to be a nigger and lie about the credit, but it is just another thing to outlast. Outsurviving, outliving, and outlasting my anger was much easier in my younger years. It was easier to put things aside and pursue other options or interests. Because stalkers and harassers exist and weigh on me; it has never been as comparitively easy. It isn't that I want to deny having the emotion of anger; it is just that life was easier at another time. If there was a crowd reading this, yes I really am talking to myself. I am not seeking advice or a counseling session about my anger. Yet, harassers may exist.
